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I met with my new lawyer today and started divorce proceedings. I have an appointment Friday to sign the paperwork. I am feeling a lot of different feelings today, mostly sad. Sad that I have to leave the man I love because he loves drinking and cocaine more than he loves being with me. Sad that I'll most likely have to sell my house that I've worked so hard on and love so much. He has spent all of our money, and then some. I will probably come out of this marriage with nothing but some furniture that I came in with.
However... on the bright side... I'm actually looking forward to getting a fresh start. From now on, I will choose to be around positive, upbeat people who actually want to see the world and do something with their life besides getting wasted. I'm trying to look past all this unpleasantness that I'm about to endure (I haven't told my husband about this yet). I'm trying to think about what life will be like without the worry and financial doom that I'm currently living with. I'm planning on pouring myself into my artistic endeavors and making a better life for myself.
Thanks for listening! ...the sadly optimistic artygirl
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Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain.
I think it is wonderful Arty that you can and are using all your emotions during this part of your journey. I think of so many who go through the trials of leaving behind all they worked for in pursuit of a better dream, yet they do so with just focusing on all the negative and not realizing that there could possibily be a positive.
You are so good to post about this. It is such a mix of horrible emotions, but positive also. I am deciding whether to make the same move you are. It is so hard to decide when you have had enough, and I definitely know the hard financial side of things, AH is unemployed and the bills are so far behind also. That just adds more stress to the situation, doesn't it?
Please take care of yourself, and things will be fine, HP is looking out for you. Cool about your artistic endeavors! I want to delve back into my art and guitar playing too! Good luck and love to you....