The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
So today I wake with only a small amount of anxiousness...this is good for me. The weekend was exhausting as most of mom's house is packed, sorted, etc. It is a very emotional journey. I have not talked to my A since Friday, as he went fishing for the weekend. I sat last night really thinking about this "have no expectations" "take care of me" - - - I think after two years of reading, posting, understanding myself, that I might be grasping this. He said he wanted to think about what "he" wants.....hmmmmmmm I know what I want. I am mainly posting to see my own words in writing. I want to be happy. I want to make NO MORE deals with an alcoholic. (i.e. I will only drink on Fridays and golf on Sundays) I want clearer and better boundaries. Wow, what renewed strength I have today.