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For those that are keeping up with me, we are all doing ok. I am so bad at posting, I am used to just going to the chat room and letting those know who are on line at the time.
Anyway, I am doing ok today. I am on a major spiritual path of a lifetime. I believe my HP has a plan for me. Not quite sure what all I am supposed to do, but I am walking it. That I know...I need to stay positive, and move forward. Not keep looking back. I can't change any of that anyway! So, I learn from what I have done, and either make changes or do even better what I had just done.
For those that don't know my story, I will make a quick summary! Bryon is 22 months old. We found out in Feb he has cancer. Rhabdomyosarcoma. He has had continuous chemo treatment as well as a full radiation treatment. He is scheduled for chemo through Jan of 07.
He had his overnight chemo on Monday and we met w/a physical therapist for the first time. Really scared me. He is still doing pretty good, but the pt did notice that the mobility in the left leg is a bit less and he does favor his right side even when walking. So, basically, he is compinsating (sp?) already. With his back to back treatments of the harsh chemo, they are expecting possible increased problems w/the mobility. so I already have a list of things to work with him on. We are already on it! He hasn't lost the use of his legs yet, and I would really hate to see him loose them now! He is doing really good.
I am still wondering about my hubby. He is still drinking. I am still really not sure what I think about it. I think I have so much going on w/Bryon that I try really not to worry about it. At first it REALLY freaked me out, but now, I don't really care. I do, but at the same time, I don't. I would rather pick my battles than fight all the time. It's just not worth it.
I hope all is well with all of you. And I thank all of my MIP friends for all the prayers I have received! Thank you thank you thank you!
I hadnt heard your story and I am sitting in silence.. I am not sure what to write but felt like I had to respond.. Your post really put things into perspective for me.. Often I sit and think poor me, married to an alcoholic why, why, why????... Then I read your post and realize that I have so much to be thankful for.. From one mother to another, you are in my thoughts and prayers ... Focus on your son your husband is just doing what they do.. which is drink.. Keep your eye on the big picture... I'll be praying for you and your family..
I am so sad to hear of your troubles. I can imagine the stress of dealing with a sick child and one so very very sick. I hope there are days where it is bearable for you.
I am so sad your husband cannot be there. I do understand alcoholics do not take stress well.
I'm glad to hear that Bryon is still doing ok. It's good you saw the PT so you can stay one step ahead with his therapy. Keep putting one foot ahead of the other in walking spiritual your path!
