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He said he was sorry but he had no money to get me a present. It's my birthday today. He said he would get me something when he gets paid tomorrow, but that he wouldn't be able to afford much anyway...then he asked me if this was okay.
I just said that he should do whatever he has to do. I knew this would happen really, but I'm sort of thinking that I deserve better than this. I'm hurt today. I think he was genuinely annoyed with himself, thats why he gets frustrated sometimes too. I think he knows I deserve better too.
Anyway, I'm going to my sister's this evening for dinner. She's kind and won't judge. I know she wants me to have a better life but she doesn't say much. She won't hurt me.
Im working as hard as I can to get better for myself and I feel I'm doing well, just at time like this it I have to wonder what its all about really.
Thanks for listening, just needed to tell someone who would understand AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Hope you have a great one! Do something special for yourself today. Take the day off and lounge in your pjs, read a good book or watch that special movie... Love, TLC
Happy Birthday and I am thankful you were born and you matter.it is amazing how we always get someone in our lives to make up for the ones we dont have.It is not great you have a sister who loves you unconditionally Happy birthday.. do you hear my singing ..dori
It sounds like you had some really high expectations, there. We're not entitled to anything, here. Like I told another member re the birthday thing, my dad told me on my birthday he was sorry he was my father and that I had ever been born. That was my birthday gift.
Happy Birthday to you, please try and enjoy your day. My birthday was yesterday and I did not expect that my husband would even call me for it. I chose to turn it over and was determined to have a good day despite the problems currently going on. Not only did my husband call but also my father who is A and hasnt recognized my birthday in 5 years.
My gifts are not material anymore. They are the appreciation of those in my life, the progress I have made in this program, and the beauty that is growing within me each and everyday.
Karen
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Nobody cares how much you know until they know how much you care. Love you all!
Karen
Birthdays and holidays are super super loaded for me. I have to work hard not to go into depression. I can understand your disappointment. I have a lot of fantasies about how the A will turn around. I have to examine them and let them go. He is worse than ever on a holiday.