The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Before al-anon I lived my life in a sea of frustration and feeling left out. I seethed with resentment day and night. These days I really seek to lessen resentments as best I can. I know how toxic they are.
These days I am struggling financially (when wasn't I?) but now when I come up against bureaucracy I have faith in myself. I have faith in my ability to transcend and get through a situation. I will not abandon me. The A may do it (he probably always will) but I will take care of me as best I can. So today when I had another bout with bureaucracy some money I am owed is held up because different people did not get the information they needed, I did not tantrum, I did not think this isn't fair! I just thought I will take care of that. And I didn't think poor me. I have poisoned myself with toxicity and I still have to deal with the repercussions of doing that (that is one reason I am still living with the A on some level). I do not have to add any more to the pile to be sorted out though. I do have faith in myself these days. I did not have that before.
Maresie, I aspire to achieve the level thought processes you share. I feel your strength and your tenacity. Don't allow financial burdens to undo all the progress you have made. It's difficult, I know, but think how far you've come and how much you've grown. I wish I could tap into your wisdom and and courage and reserve it for when I need it myself. Someday, I'm sure.
So happy for you...sounds like you are on a great path of recovery.....sometimes we can not control everything that happens....how wonderful you have accepted this....
Life can be very trying at times.....best of luck.....acceptance is a great thing....and accepting what we can not change can be tough......maresie, stay strong and stay on your wonderful path.....
Maresie sounds like you are finding a little patience and serenity amid the setbacks. That is all they are. Keep posting, your words are very inspiring to myself and others and it is almost like a breath of fresh air when reading them. Luv Leo xxx
