The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
He came home that night and we talked some but I see where nothing has been resolved. As I said before financially I am in a bind and completing school is so very important to me. I have been told many times to "act as if" and it will help me with any situation. I am going to start trying this and hope it will help me in some way. I want to concentrate on my life now and my needs but this comes so hard for me it has been all about him for so long. Yesterday he played on a softball team with a lot of people from his meetings. I went and I really had a good time. It wasn;t about being there with him but the people were so nice. I met a few girls and for the first time in a long time I was happy without worrying about what was going on with him. I have got to start worrying about my issues and let him worry about his. I know he cannot be working his program with all the lies and deceit that is going on. My goal no wis to try to let that go and worry about my program and how I am working it. I know looking at his phone only causes me pain but it is hard to not want to know what is going on. I hope working my program will help with my self esteem so I can care enough about me again to not let someone treat me with disrespect. Once again I want to thank you all for being here. This message board helps me so much and knowing there are people who really care without making judgement on me. It has been a life savor.
It sounds like you have a vision of who you want to be. Good for you. It is difficult to get out of their way and focus on ourselves. A book I am reading says it is none of our business what our partner is doing, she says simply notice what they are doing. It helps me alot.
