The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
TGIF!! Its been a long tiring week. It took me everything I had to make it into work this morning, not because I'm depressed just exhausted. Aside from work this week has been a peaceful week. Monday night the whole family went to an open meeting with the A to support him on his 30days of sobriety. His best friend tagged along as well. Wednesday night we were able to get a sitter and head out to a speaker meeting too.
I've been working my program, started back at step one with a sponser this time. It has really helped me to stay focused on me. I saw a new couselor last night, told her my story, what I hoped to get out of counseling. She said I can see how much you have grown in the last three years. You are getting healthier with each new day. Driving home last night I was filled with joy about my recovery because I do feel healthier. I took some time for me last night and had the A drop and pick up the kids. He was pretty grumpy yesterday, was in that quarelling mood, but I did not go there. I just kept it simple and light hearted. Yesterday was the first day in a while that I was able to maintain peace and happiness regardless of what his mood was like.
I'm still working on the fears though... that will take time. When I have those thoughts were I begin projecting my worst nightmares happening I have to stop myself and say, this has not happened your upsetting yourself over something that has not occurred or may never occur. My A has been experiencing some tests of his own this week and is realizing who will support his sobriety and who won't. I see some progress in him and will continue to pray for his healing. I have no clue what the future holds for us... I know I don't want to marry him right now... I may never want to marry him. If I see changes and progress in his recovery and he continues to work his program I will be happy, I'll feel like I want to stay. I am taking one good day at a time. When we have a good time together I am learning to enjoy it because I really don't know what tomorrow will be like or what will happen. Just wanted to share today. Have a great day.
Hugs,
Twinmom~
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"The people who don't mind matter and the people who mind, don't matter". (Dr. Seuss)
I am so happy for you, this sounds great! I so needed to read it too. Thanks for sharing the good stuff, it really helps me when I hit a dip to see the program hit home for someone else. You really deserve it!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
Its been a long tiring week. It took me everything I had to make it into work this morning, not because I'm depressed just exhausted. Aside from work this week has been a peaceful week. Monday night the whole family went to an open meeting with the A to support him on his 30days of sobriety. His best friend tagged along as well. Wednesday night we were able to get a sitter and head out to a speaker meeting too. 
