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Ok went to the concert for most of the day it was fun but VERY CROWDED. I thought long and hard on this one because of my past and my A's past didn't know if this is really what I wanted to do at first. Wasn't sure if him and me going to a concert would be a good idea or not. To be honest there were a few times I was uncomfortable. But that had to do with things that had nothing to do with us/me. I got sunburnt but I loved every bit of it. Note to myself next time I go to a concert that has more then one band and is durning the day, I need to bring sunscreen. We had one incident he tried avoiding his old friends. That he didn't want to let them know he was in town. It didn't work but he did his hello's fast and we went on our way. he told me he was sorry. Then he got upset because he didn't want him to know he was here. I told him that it was up to him whatever he decides. But I also let him know I had noticed the change in him and how proud I was of him because he is really trying this time. Reason I can tell is because before he wouldn't have cared at all about how I felt when but in that situation with his old friends. The fact that he was upset about running into them really told me alot about his progress. But after we left them and we were checking out all the venders. I am not much of being in the middle of a big crowd never have been. So he and I found a nice quiet place where we could just sit and talk and listen to the music. It was really nice. We were given tickets by one of my friends for later in the evening, for the comedy house. But we decided to stay in instead. Went and got some movies to watch. So I want to thank my HP for a wonderful weekend. If that is the only weekend I get for awhile it was enough to keep a smile on my face for awhile.
My small novel I meantioned in my other post, the boundries in it are for me not him. I know I can't control, him. I don't want to I just want to understand, and figure out if I can be strong enough to stay by his side and love him for all the good and bad in him. With out losing this person I am becoming.
