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My AH is in prison and has no phone for the past few weeks and lo and behold I havent had anything to post about. I havent had any problems and have felt really great but thats presented a new one. I am having the hardest time motivating myself to go to meetings and although I feel good, I dont want to not go. I want to get healthier while I have this time to myself. Does anyone have any ways they motivate themselves to go even when there is no pain in thier life? I really need some trick or technique to go.
ALthough I was reading a 12 step book last night that talked about working too much and I think I have been doing that. I pick up every extra shift, stay late, etc. So maybe I am really tired and dont even know it. Its just that with my AH in prison, I am holdng down the fort on my own.
He wrote and said he is "working on AA". Not sure what that means but maybe they have meetings in there or he is doing the steps. (Or its just a lie to make me want to stay together.) None of my business right? But if he is working on AA, I definitely want to be working on Al-anon but I need to get my a** to meetings!
The motivation I use most is that it is during those good periods that I need meeting most. During the good is when I am most apt to let down my guard and think everything is great. I am more apt to fall back into old patterns easier and get sucked back into the fold of the disease. It is during these times that I dont even realize this is happening. So my motivation is not wanting to go back to where I was - in good or bad.
Hope this helps.
Karen
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Nobody cares how much you know until they know how much you care. Love you all!
Karen
What motivates me to get to meetings is that sick crazy girl that lives inside me. She is quiet when I am working my program, but she is constantly on the lookout for weakness in my recovery.
If I even feel like not going to a meeting, then I know she is getting louder and waiting to strike. So I know I better get my butt there.
It may sound nuts, but I have been able to seperate myself. See the part of me who is active in the disease as a different person.
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
Thanks you guys-I printed out all your responses and stuck them on my fridge so when I feel like not going I can read them.
And the degree of my own self centeredness sometimes astounds me-it didnt even occur to me to go to help anyone else. Duh! I have been going to 12 step meetings for 20 years and I forgot THAT!!!!
