The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
To be fair, I spent a lot of time around alcoholic brains. That might explain why this has arisen; nothing more than familiar contempt.
I recall hearing stories about having a devil of a time around child support and ex-alcoholic husbands. Now going through it I need a place to be honest with myself.
Is it really about the money ? This particular week, yes it is practically but overarchingly it's that awful desire to extract accountability out of a person whose lack of accountability caused me a lot of distress, hurt and stress.
He insists on rewriting history. I resist this. But I'm forgetting it doesn't matter. Why should I care about his bullshit if i no longer have to live with it?
I will not pick up the rope and skip back to crazy town. I will not.
{{{A4L2}}} Ah I relate, the wishing, the hoping, the not understanding why the alcoholic brain doesn't act differently. How much energy and time have I have wasted wanting the impossible. My spouse has 2 years in recovery but now has stopped going to meetings. There is still a once a week sit down with the sponsor but there is nothing like meetings to work on switching that stinking thinking. What choices do I have? Keep working on myself and keep the focus on me. I find exercise a tremendous help. :)
