Sometimes it feels like I can't win.
I get headway and then something goes wrong in my relationship.
I am not always in the right frame of mind so sometimes I don't see
things the way they really are. I am not delusional just a bit confused.
But, I am still a winner in God's eyes. He doesn't make junk.
My relationship suffers because I have a hard time with setting boundaries.
I also struggle with not standing my ground or standing up for myself.
Sometimes I just want to stomp my feet, yell & leave the room. But, I try to
quiet my spirit & not engage.
Nevertheless, I am a work in progress & a child of God.
I have to remind myself, too, How important is it really? Compared to my sanity.
Do I want to be right or do I want to be happy?
Is it truly all good?
So, here I sit trying not to complain. My life is so much better than it was & better
than a lot of other people I know. Even my friends in the Program. Some of them are
very sick but they still keep going.
And, I have pretty good health.
I don't really have solid complaints. Even when the weather is bad or the sun isn't shining,
God's handiwork is still there.
So, I stay in gratitude. I am so grateful that I can do simple things like typing up this post.
My hands still work. My mind is alert.
I am getting frustrated. Because people do annoy me.
I am not perfect. I have to remember that this particular person is
probably mentally ill.
Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.
I only get what I can handle.
I can only work on me & I am a work in progress.
No one nowhere is going to steal my serenity; my peace of mind.
I know now who I am & whose I am.
And, I will remember that whatever happens in my world, I can invite anyone to take the ride with
me. All I have to do is get on the road to Happy destiny.
I don't have to accept the unacceptable.
Does this all seem reachable? I ask myself. Yes, with God's help, I can reach my goals.
Kathleen