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Ok, I admit it...I listen to country, I'm a country gal at heart. Heehee. Just heard this song and thought to myself how it gives a tiny bit of insight into the other side, the struggle they go thru, the shame they feel. Why does that matter to me? Well, it helps me to have compassion, to not blame. It also helps me to remember part of why it is that I stay in the relationship, that this isn't something he chooses to want, but rather it is an illness that he has that he struggles against. Here's the song:
Artist/Band: Cagle Chris Lyrics for Song: Anywhere But Here Lyrics for Album: Anywhere But Here
Man, I hate you found me here With whiskey on my breath I know I should be ashamed So much for those twelve steps He said "No my son, I know you're doin' your best For all you've been through, hey, I understand I only came here to be your friend You know she still asks about you And wonders how you're doin' and where you been..."
Chorus 1: Tell her I'm in Tampa, on the causeway Watchin' the waves roll in Tell her I'm in Aspen, in a cabin Findin' myself again Tell her that I'm happy , and I've moved on Better than I've ever been Just don't tell her that you saw me, drownin' in this bottle Tryin' to make her disappear Tell that I'm anywhere Anywhere but here
It would only break her heart If she knew the truth See, I told her when she left This was the last thing I would do Tomorrow I swear I'm startin' over again I've made it this far and I know how it ends But she doesn't have to find out where I am So if you see or hear from here again
Chorus 2: Tell her I'm in Baton Rouge, Louisiana Sellin' cars five das a week Tell her I'm in Mobile, Alabama Gettin' back on my feet Tell her I'm happy and I've moved on Lookin' better than you've ever seen Just don't tell her that you saw me, drownin' in this bottle Tryin' to make her disappear Tell that I'm anywhere Anywhere but here
Tell her that I'm happy and I've moved on But let her know that I still care Man, tell her I'm anywhere Anywhere but here
Tell her I'm anywhere Anywhere, but here
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Let your light shine in the darkness. "I can't just bring my mind to meetings...I must also bring my heart."
I love that song too Kis - ugh, this damn disease that gets ahold of the A and those they love. I am sure you've heard Little Rock by Collin Raye too. Real tear jerkers.
love Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
Never heard that song but I am going to search for it on Yahoo videos and probably bawl my eyes out, Gee thanks! tee hee
I hope and pray that my A, no matter how disgusted and angry I am with him, that the Lord finds him and touches him and He finds his heart and inspires him to begin recovery.
I do love my A, and will never stop loving him, it is just not healthy to love him so I wont be involved in his life anymore.
That song really made me think, wow, that is my A in a few months, weeks, years....trying to kill my memory, the one he let get away TWICE, the one he threw away like yesterdays garbage, all for the lie of booze.
Funny, the day after we had first spoken again after 10 years he played a song to me over the phone it was "One Wish" by Ray J...wish he had taken that "One Wish" that he was granted more seriously. Just not meant to happen for us I guess. The Lord has worked in mysterious ways in my life for sure. I thank God for all the blessings and burdens in my life. I thank God for bringing my A to me again, even if it was for just a short time, I may have went through the entirety of my life wondering "what if? what if we saw one another again, talked, maybe met up and re-united...what if?" NOW I know...oh boy do I know!
