The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
the last few days have been rough, but i have to say thank you all for listening. i have found peace in saying how i feel and not being made to feel guilty for feeling that way. mind you i'm on my first step and it seems 20 feet high. but i am sitting on top of it and it's only the begining. tomorrow's another day and i might feel bad, but at least i'm in the right direction. i think my real meetings are lacking, because i can't speak w/out someone over riding me, but i think thats just me and my personality, or maybe they need to speak more. i dont really know but i read all your posts and listen in my real meetings, and no matter what, i know i am not alone. because for the last few years i thought i was. thank you. but catch me tomorrow i may not feel so sure... but it's a start and it's a good one!
Keep coming back! Keep writing and keep working it! I know exactly how you feel. Have you found a sponsor yet? I am not sure what you mean about the meetings. There is no crosstalk so the other members should be letting you vent. Sometimes however when we are new. The conversation is always about the A and not ourselves. I try to keep the focus on myself. We have no control over what anyone else says or does. Only in how we react to it.
Good job taking that first step. It can be the most difficult one.
I guess the first step is always the hardest, but the best.
We are all taking the same road to find the light at the end of the tunnel, no matter what part of the journey we're on, right? I'm on step one also, so I'm right with ya.
