The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I read back over my last post yesterday and decided I needed to make a change before it came between my family and I. I said what I meant and I said it nicely. I know they are happy for me and want me to have a different life than the rollercoaster I have been on the last 2 or so years. I understand thier happiness I just do not share it at the moment and with my stubborn nature trying to force it upon me is not a good idea. I accepted the apologies and am happy they can understand my feelings. I'm proud of myself that I did not just grit and bear it.
When someone who has walked in my shoes says the same things to me I can identify with the caring and I thank you all for that. Please don't stop telling me it will get better or ways to make it better. The support of people who know the pain of hard decisions and divorce and addiction are essential to me right now. Please accept my apology if my post was taken as a negative reaction to the replies, it was not intended that way at all!
This has been a tough day for you. I can relate. My head was spinning out of control the day I met with my lawyer.
You feel terrible and that is understandable.
I am sorry that you are so upset.
It will get better. I am out one year and my life has changed incredibly.
I started writing this to you yesterday then got busy.
I left after I tried everything and I could not live. Why should 2 people kill themselves, I jumped off the sinking ship and learned to swim from all the great fishes on this site and in my face to face.
In the beginning my lonliness and emptiness and pain was horrible. I came to the chat room many times full of despair and pain and people listened.
I acted as if, you know the "fake it till you make it theory". I went to work, went to f2f, rode my bike alot and acted as if I was normal even though I had a crushing heartache over the end of my marriage.
I got busy. I volunteered time here . I traveled the world and visited my family that I had become estranged from. I went to 23 states and 2 foriegn countires. I did things I would have never thought possible.
You can have a full and interesting and thriving life without your A if that is that path you are on.
(((((((((Jennifer)))))))))))
I prayed the serenity prayer often and still do a few times a week. You can feel better
In support
Megan
__________________
Megan
If you want things you never had you need to do things you have never done
