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Thank you all so much for you love and support when I asked hubby to leave this past Friday.
It's been an okay weekend. I pretty much worked, and that helped to pass the time. I was phyically and emotionally spent when I came home last night. I have managed to sleep and I admit I like not coming home to chaos or being afraid to come home. He left a message on the machine Saturday night (not sober) to tell me that he was staying with his roomate from rehab. This is the guy who's life he saved. The good news is that "Bob" is a recovering alcoholic, but is on meth so he sleeps a lot. Hubby is not addicted to anything but alcohol, so perhaps they will be able to help each other.
I talked to his Dad, and told him that I had to do it. If not I could die right along with him and I refuse to do that. His Dad being the amazing man that he is, completely understands.
Today I'm just taking it slow. I did call the A to remind him that he needed to pick up the rest of his meds and he has a Dr.'s appointment tomorrow. His roomate picked up and said that he was sober. That was the only way I was going to talk to him. He said that he missed me, and that I sounded like I was getting sick. I am. He offered to come and take care of me, and maybe we could talk. I told him, I love him for offering but I just needed some quiet time, and I didn't want to get into any heavy discussions. I said maybe later in the week. We told each other that we still love each other, and we know that will always be. I cried for a few minutes after I got after the phone, but I know that I am doing the right thing.
So tonight I am crawling in bed early with Pipers. I may have gained a queen sized bed, but the cat still takes most of it! lol For such a little kitty she can certainly stretch out! Tomorrow I start back to my meetings, and am going to start the steps. ODAT and the serenity prayer are my mantra. Thanks for all the words of ESH.
Love and blessings to you family.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Hang on to what you know! You will be fine in the long run. You keep spreading your cheery attitude around to others and you are bound to catch it yourself. The sun will shine on your face and brighten your day soon, with your trust in your HP.
Josey
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Julianne - It's best to move on. You cannot look back in anger in life. It's too short
I know you what you are feeling hone.....Just try and relax your mind for a little bit....This is a very big step you are taking......The sadest thing about this damn disease it that love has absolutely nothing to do with it......One minute at a time.....