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I was feeling a little sad today so I thought I would apply a little program to my pity party.
I have been feeling alone and lonely lately. At the same time happy in my independence, but wishing I had someone to share it with. Scared that if I get close to someone they will realize that I am not perfect and ugly. A stupid fear of rejection....the dreaded "what if!!!"
And I know you will all tell me I am beautiful and lovely and wonderful, but I gotta tell myself that. And not just tell myself that, but really believe it. Thank you to one of my lovely friends that sings "You are so beautiful" everytime I come into the chat room. Thank you very much my friend, I think I will sing it to myself now.
We are all on this journey called life together. We may walk together at times, or we may go in separate or opposite directions down the same path. It doesn't matter because we are not alone. Whether holding hands with a friend, or with our HP, we are not alone.
For that I am truly grateful my beautiful,lovely, and wonderful friends.
Much Love, SenoraBob
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Higher Power doesn't always wrap presents in pretty paper.
OK, I won't tell you that you are beautiful and wonderful...
But can I get away with......??? You always make me smile and/or laugh. I love your demented sense of humor. The chatroom brightens when you enter. We all love you very much.
It's quite a gift to always make someone else smile, and you are certainly blessed with that :).
Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.
Dearest Senora, I gotta agree with Christy, the chatroom does brighten whenever you are there. It is more than that, for me; there is also a sense of safety and compassion that comes through. And, in my book, that is beauty that stays with one forever.
My most wonderful friend... what can I do that could help you realize your inner/outer beauty? The answer to that is to just continue to love you until you can love yourself. Your words to me over the past many months have touched my heart in ways I did not think possible. YOUR ESH has helped me so tremendously, YOUR beauty in YOUR laugh, YOUR smile, YOUR hugs, YOUR words... is immeasureable. Someone shared with me last night that "you give up the feelings of negativity for that which makes you whole." the sparkly one
"alone and lonely" that was my thinking for years.....who would ever love me???? I do not deserve to be happy was what I would tell myself as a result. And because I had the thoughts of doubt, sadness, failure, etc, that was my life; you reap what you sew...It is only since I have surrounded myself with such loving, understanding and wonderful people in the program, and worked my program that I have been able to be the real me. Yes... you are beautiful and lovely and wonderful, and I am lucky and grateful to call you a friend!!!! Love ya Senora
As your other friends here have already told you, you are a wonderful, caring, kind person who has given so much love and support to all of us. I know those same demons that are talking to you my friend. It is taking time to tell them jerks to "shaddup!!!" You are one of those people who have helped me to tell them to take a hike and go tell it to someone who buys that crap.
We are great my friend! All of us! Beautiful children of God. No matter what line was fed to us or that we bought in to in the past, we gotta let that go!
I so appreciate your friendship and your caring kicks in the arse that you give me when I need one! I will happily return the favor should you so desire!!!
I'm sorry you're feeling a bit down. Guess the sad times help us appreciate the more upbeat ones. You are an inspiration to me, one of the first I met in mip. Your humor and cheerful tone of voice add a really palatible ambience to our room. Thank you for that!
You don't need my advice, so I am going to tell you a few things I do when in the dumps...gradually pulls me out. I like to get busy and do something for someone who is worse off than I.
I make quilts for kids and veterans with my local group. Some of the recipients include Ronald McDonald House, single mothers' homes, and the like. Our local firehouse always seems happy to have some kid quilts for their emergency scenes.
Also, I make simple books for a brain damaged friend. Sometimes, I sit down and write a note to someone I haven't communicated with lately, a real letter, not email. Or call someone, or go for a walk until I meet someone to smile at and chat with.
Getting out of myself is usually what I need to do.
You know all this stuff, and that's why I hesitate to ramble on at you! lol Maybe someone else will read this and get a lift.
Looking forward to seeing and hearing you around the room.
Senora Bob - my minister gave a sermon to the seniors today and i wanted to share it here but I didn't know how to fit it in.
The jist of his sermon was titles vs. testimonies ( life's production) Do you want to be remembered for your title or your testimony?
I thought it fitting here because we have the titles of OP, but that does not mean we are in full recovery and know everything. It is so nice of you to share that someone wih your years of recovery still has slips and it is a life long journey in Al-Anon.
His point was at your funeral do you want to be rembered for your title or yout testimony? I for one will be rembering you for all the ESH that you give on a daily basis and will never remember one day of a pitty pot.
You give so much, and know how to get rid of the filth and get yourself back on track and set a good example to us all. You may be physically alone, but you are never along at MIP.
Thanks for all you have done for me!!!
Love ya for who you are, ups and down.
Josey
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Julianne - It's best to move on. You cannot look back in anger in life. It's too short
Thank you for your kind words my friends. Thank you for allowing me to be human and imperfect. I hate whining...but I guess I get to have one of those days once in a while and I am grateful to have all of you here to talk to. Much love to you all, and keep your size twelves to yourself davey!!! SenoraBob
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Higher Power doesn't always wrap presents in pretty paper.
how so very thankful i am to be able to spend time near you. to watch you in action. to read your view.. your ideas, your perceptions , your lessons learned of the steps and of the traditions of Alanon. Of life in general. Of life. i enjoy to watch you in action. i learn from you ....i have learned so much from you each time I have been able to be in chat with you or to make it to the online meetings. i learn more and more each time. you talk of how to LET the bad things...the bad times....the unsure and the frustration of this terrible disease (all) GO. to trust in my HP/God. TO focus on myself and my recovery. that HP/God is going to take care of me (us) no matterwhat, even when we can't or dont want to think about taking care of ourselves. You remind me that .... I am not ---that WE are not alone. I love you sooooo much!!!
You are so clear ..... in your words.... it is never a question as to what you are intending when you do speak out. you reach out and touch and you respond with love and an endearing affection that is warm and tender.... at the same time its bold and straightforward. J UST WHAT I NEED TO HEAR**just when I need to hear it. (LoL) I could not ask for it to be put to me any more stern and to the point when I am in need. You give it out like it is. I sooo appreciate your es&h. You are such an inspiration to me.
When I'm feeling down... or lost. ((((SB))))) You., *your words* are uplifting. The giggles, the humor, the seriousnesss.... is all so priceless. Lifting. I feel blessed to witness your shares.
You have a style.....a compassion and a knowledgeof "workin it" that shines through like a BRIGHT STARthat will never burn out. You reach out with hugs where and when needed...and also when its time for one of us to receive that swift kick!!!
to watch you in action. to read your view.. your ideas, your perceptions , your lessons learned of the steps and of the traditions of Alanon. Of life in general. Of life. i enjoy to watch you in action. 
i learn from you ....i have learned so much from you each time I have been able to be in chat with you or to make it to the online meetings. 
i learn more and more each time. you talk of how to LET the bad things...the bad times....the unsure and the frustration of this terrible disease (all) GO. to trust in my HP/God. TO focus on myself and my recovery. that HP/God is going to take care of me (us) no matterwhat, even when we can't or dont want to think about taking care of ourselves. You remind me that .... I am not ---that WE are not alone. I love you sooooo much!!!
reach out and touch and you respond with love and an endearing affection that is warm 
and tender.... at the same time its bold 
and straightforward. J UST WHAT I NEED TO HEAR**
just when I need to hear it. (LoL) I could not ask for it to be put to me any more stern and to the point when I am in need. You give it out like it is. I sooo appreciate your es&h. You are such an inspiration to me.
or lost. ((((SB))))) You., *your words* are uplifting. The giggles, the humor, the seriousnesss.... is all so priceless. Lifting. I feel blessed to witness 
your shares. 
that will never burn out. You reach out with hugs where and when needed...and also when its time for one of us to receive that swift kick!!! 
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