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Do they burn out instantaneously or fade away slowly? I know you can see them from far away, that blue light they use at airports, so even a glint is enough, a tiny very hot spark. Turn inward to GOD, love, to learn to love myself & not feel the guilt of placing other's first... will it take 40 years?
God save me, as I turn to you, face you, sacrifice myself & willingly give it all to you... I can't possibly wait so long as it took in my stubborness to get 'here' I know I can be healed in a moment, for time means nothing to you God. In the blink of my eye, could be an eternity for you or my long life, just a flash to You.
"Look up" & have faith ~ I'm haning in... a cat with 9 lives or do I have a purpose yet undiscovered?
A part of us in this life, on Earth, will always be "veiled" unto us. Only at 'the end' will any of us truly & completely know the truth of ALL.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
I feel we live in this life with an experience(s) and understanding(s) that many haven't experienced. Yet we have to co-exist. I had to let it be ok that some of those around me didn't understand what I think I understand. Wanting to share it sometimes drives me insane. I had to make alot of choices about some of the things. Some could only be shared with a select group of persons with simular understandings and to expose it to those that were unaware could be very painful. For along time I was unaware that I would have to do that.I thought everyone else was smarter than me and just didn't want to include me. Was I wrong about that. Not everyone shares the same insite.They had something I didn't and I had something they didn't. And it might always stay that way with some in my life and not in my life.
When I read you asking to be saved, I thought ,meant in a kind way, you are saved, you are alive today. Not sure if this is what you mean. But what I thought . You have a life that can transform in any given moment, flash of time. I don't have to take care of 'them' anymore. I found out I wasn't supposed to in the 1st place. I tried and did all I could do til the time I found out it was time for me to start taking care of me and let them take care of them. And maybe some day I will meet someone that cares for me in the way I want to be cared for. Maybe not. If not I will take care of me the best I can. This is alot easier said than done for me. I had to deal with feelings of omnipotence. What was expected of me drove me to that point. And only HP is omnipotent. I had to realize my human limitations and choose where to draw a line on things. Not an easy task to do and ever-changing. I had to withdraw my energies from many directions and try to refocus on a present day life for me. I used to think I was supposed to save the world and only HP can do that. I had to come up with a very different perspective to live within. Find a place for me all over again in this life I'm in. Almost like withdrawing back into the cacoon and emerging again all over again.
Hope I've said some thing to benefit you. Something said to post this so I did. I'm risking again. And with all good intentions meant.
Love in RecoveryI have a feeling you will find the way
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I tell myself when times are rough, "this to shall pass!!!" Ask HP for guidance, if the door is open, and I know how to look, I will become aware! I also visit http://www.inspiringthots.net/ . Blessings , Your sister in Recovery
Love in Recovery
I have a feeling you will find the way