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Your poetry is beautiful & I know that your mom couldn't for wtvr reasons express her great love... it got through somehow... it shines through you.
"I wished that I could take your place if someone had to die," -mac
This line got me deeply ~ I couldn't tell you how many times my mother & I both, in our sickness have said that, for and to each other.
Last week she told me she has no life, no love, uncertain future... (all I can think is "Yes! I know exactly how you feel) instead I say something (defensive), I say, "You have always had my love" ~ I didn't mean it defensively at the time but in hindsight, none of us can ever be "enough" for each other... we have to be "enough for ourselves."
I know it is in my sickness that I look to anyone else... I have to pull my own bootstraps up. It breaks my heart to think, she can't just love me for me or that I can or could be enough to please her... but hey, I struggle w/ pleasing myself. If I'm not enough for me, why should I be surprised.
When I told her, 'you have always had my love' she just piped up ~ 'that's not the same as having a loving partner...' et cetera ~ yep, don't I know it... I'm alone, so depressed & out there I don't even feel like getting to know the opposite sex, let alone trying to have it or bother (((((ugh)))) ~ that would require talking!
anyway... off on a non-sequitor. Thanks for sharing your profound love with us all, love -K
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Mac - such sweet, tender, heart-felt words. I can tell how much you loved your mom, still do. What a wonderful way to celebrate her today, just thinking about her and loving her. How often have I told my own children. Don't worry it isn't about a present it is about thoughtful action. That is what I always want in return from my children. She is so proud of all you have done to continue to love and grow within your own heart. The love you give as a result of that does contain a piece of her love, thank you for sharing her with us today my friend. love sparkette
This was my hubby's first Mother's Day w/o his Mom, she's been gone only 7 wks.
I took the focus off of me for a bit. I thanked her in my prayers for giving me this wonderful, kind man and I made sure to give hubby a huge hug and tell him his Mom must be so very proud :) I know I am.
Christy
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