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ummm....scuse me????? did you title this post as a "little poem" my goodness mac. Thank you for sharing your beautiful words, please continue to do so!
Mac, when I get back to Oregon I am gonna send you a beautiful poem that my love gave to me. It is beautiful and I would like to share it with you and everyone.
I have to say that every time that I have been blessed to be present to listen to you... you have helped me to stop and take a different look/prospective of the things that are happening around me with my having this terrible disease being a part to my everyday. I am able to take a different healthier prospective. I soooo appreciate your giving of es&h and look forward to witness you more and more telling your view and your hope. and NOW your poems! WOW. thispoem is sooooo beautiful!
Thanks very much for posting it on the Board!
((((((((((BiGHUG)))))))) your a sweet sweet spirit (((You are))) KEEP LOOKING UP!
I still fight, hang on on & know something of value is there
I may be fighting alone... I know when it gets rough 'friends' run
who would I be to blame anyone from fear or pain, who would want to face 'that sort of "fun"'?
I blame no one, i take responsibility for the great relationships I have sabatoged, the deep pain within myself I have caused, surely there have been other's hurt along the way too...
I am no one, nothing, nobody ~ just a fool. A fool for love but it is getting stale as my heart bleeds yet others pale.
I know it is I that stand alone, God at my side but everyone else gone.
I know in the eyes of the Trinity, the She/He/It of ALL, the Godhead, the Universe is pulling for me to merely open up my eyes & know we are all ONE.
Maybe I am "just going thru something & that is all" but it is "veiled" I cannot see through. I am alone & feel it too, seeking for gratitude in the littlest, most minute of things.
I know we don't get out easy... but there are ways to make it less painful so I am trying to cleave to *me* to see myself w/ that Blessed third eye, to embrace the God within, on good days.
I know what to do, logically. but when depression hits you, like a tidal wave & buries you for dead, I only had just begun to feel my head over water after a generation of pain... now it has come back again & no one here has ever heard me at my lowest point...
reaching out, writing about it, is a huge step for me, it means I'm not completely lost, not yet. So I have the "annoint" ~ means I have a lot to prove I suppose.
So there is still some fight in me, after all, it doesn't have me by the throat but I do feel effected.
I'm just being honest, besides, I'm just an ant in God's plan, I am a nothing, a nobody. Some stand wounded while others fall, right now I'm still here, standing on some broken legs & a destroyed life.
I deserve time & a break to get it together or not, maybe I never will, just being a good sounding board, a decent reflection & reminder, perhaps that will have to do. I have to love myself & become my own best friend & my own wife... maybe that will be the end of strife.
Geezz, off the cuff rhyming, Enough! Love, -K
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.