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I don't know what to do. My little brother started having seizures the other day and got sent to the Children's Hospital. The neurologist did tests on him and my brother didn't do very well. The doctor said he might be physically and/or mentally handicapped. I'm so scared. My mom is being terrible she's making so many hurtful comments and telling me that I need to calm down. I know I do. But I can't. My baby brother is in the hospital facing being handicapped the rest of his life with seizures. Seeing him in there the other day was horrible, with wires strapped to his head, an I.V. in his hand, and cameras on him every second. She keeps saying that he's in a good place with good doctors, but that doesn't help me at all. I didn't want to tell her that I spent hours in the nurse's office today because I couldn't stop crying. She would just tell me that I'm over-reacting and probably not let me see him. I just wanna be with him. I feel so bad, I mean enough is gonna happen to him when he gets older with our father having all the problems he does, he doesn't need this too. He's so tiny and helpless. I know I can't help him but I want to so badly. He's my baby brother. I'm starting to cry again, I hate this. I mean I think I could handle it if that was the only problem, but it's not! I mean things were getting better, but now this. My mom was sitting there screaming at me in the car on the way home from school telling me how I always creating drama. I'm not. I'm just so worried about him. I just wanna sit with him. I really love him. I don't know what else to type, I'm just so upset. I don't even know how to calm myself down. Normally I would call my mom or step-mom but my mom is screaming at me and telling me how b****y I'm being, her words, and my step-mom is at the hospital with him. I keep being told how he's in a good place, and he'll be ok, but that doesn't help at all. It just makes me wanna be with him even more.
Being helpless in a stressful situation is very hard. The one thing that may help to hear is it is stressful to everyone in your family. If you say your mom and/or stepmom would normally be the cool head you would reach for in this kind of situation and they are reacting weird... they are probably upset too.
There is a saying I have read here that says "hurt people, hurt people..." Sounds like they are too upset to really comfort you right this second. Not excussing anything, just a thought.
Nobody likes to see a little one in pain. Take heart that you are doing what you can for him right now... you care! He needs people all around him that care, and some talented medical folks can't hurt.
If you do that, try praying for him. You don't have to be sitting with him for it to work. I know I will do that for you and your family.
Take care of you and I am glad you came here to share with us.
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Glad you came here to share. Do you have a friend that you can confide in and get comfort? Sometimes you just gotta get support wherever you can.
(is this your half brother/son of step mother? I am guessing that it is) Offering to help someone will get you out of yourself. Why not offer to help your stepmom? (But stay out of the doom and gloom talk with her. Believe me, she definately needs words of encouragement and hope rather than focusing on the negative) Something you could do that is really helpful is you could prepare some meals for her freezer to cook when she has a chance (Just heat and eat, KWIM?). Your stepmom is so worried and doesn't have time to take very good care of herself. You could try helping her by these prepared dinners and that might make you feel more connected and it might make her feel comfort too in this time of need.
I wish I could do that, but I've been in and out the hospital and I don't live with her, so there's no way for me to get them to her. I know they're upset, but it's not even my mom's child. I understand my step-mom freaking, but my mother doesn't even have a real relationship with him. Plus who's the adult here? I know that sounds really mean, but I really need help right now. I'm freaking out and there's too much crap going on. The last thing I need is someone getting in my face about how I'm acting. I need to be there for my brother at the hospital, not sitting here being insulted (I don't mean you guys I mean my mother and her comments). And yes you were right it is my half-brother, so my step-mother's child. He lives with her and her parents right now. Along with my step-brother. It's all very confusing. My father has three different children from three different mothers. This baby, me, and then my little half-sister. Then my step-mom who has this baby (the one in the hospital) already had a young son, so he is/would have been my step-brother. But all the mothers ended up breaking up with my father who is an A and has drug problems. So I still call him my step-brother and them my step-mothers. Wow, even as I read over that it sounds confusing. Feel free to ask questions to clarify and I'll answer as best as I can. Anyway everyone have a good night, I have to go to bed and attempt school again tomorrow. Happy happy joy joy this week just keeps on getting better.
I've got a few suggestions, feel free to try them or ignore them. I would suggest praying about it. You can send a card (you can make it) some words of encouragement to your step mom. Get to an ala-teen meeting a find someone that you can share with. Try to find someway to get some service work in. Even if it's helping an elderly neighbor. Helping others in need will help you forget your problems. I hope that helps and remember, God doesn't put anything into our lives that we can't handle.
How about trusting in your HP ? You said: The doctor said he might be physically and/or mentally handicapped. Might isn't for sure. Any type of seizure disorder can cause mental/physical problems. That doesn't mean it will. The brain is an awesome thing, if damaged it can also recover and build new pathways. Most seizures can be controlled with medication. My daughter had seizures from the ages of 5-12 yrs. She actually grew out of it.
Try to refocus... pray for your brother's healing.
Expect a miracle!!
Christy
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Miranda not sure what the exact story was with your brother but if you are allowed to be in there with him maybe you can speak to him about the great things you plan to do together. When people are sick their hearing is still there so anything you can say to him will be comforting. Tell him how much you love him. Luv Leo xxx
I would but he doesn't understand much yet. He's only 13-14 months old. I do talk to him though, most of the time it's just trying to calm him down, or singing to him to get him to fall asleep.
