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On Friday afternoon I started thinking I could stay until after work Saturday, that's when I knew I had to leave immediately or I may not. So here I am with my dogs and a few clothes. I miss my cats, I miss my house, I wish I were finishing the gardening projects I had. I am happy I am not angry, or resentful, and able to focus on me rather than what my AH is doing. This hurts, I have little mini meltdowns throughout the day I try to make them quick and get busy doing something.
My Grandma is back in the hospital, my Mom is spending alot of time there so I have been able to help here more than normal. That makes me feel better. If you could include my Grandma in your prayers, I would greatly appreciate it.
Since my husband works nights I may be able to stay a few nights a week at home to finish some projects and see my cats without having to interact with him. I think it would be healthier for my dogs and help my Mom and stepdad have some time without houseguests. Good for me too, I love my house. I'll see if it is harder to leave again and then go from there.
No contact from my husband, I am relieved and disappointed. Not devastated like I think I would have been some time ago, I am grateful for that. Do I love him still? I'm not sure. He's not who I loved many years ago, he hasn't been for at least 5 years. And neither am I. Could I love him again? Not sure on that either. But none of that has to be solved today and may not even be a decision I need to consider anyway.
For now I read my pamphlets, say the serenity prayer, and pray alot. For peace, for guidance, for care of my family,, my A, and all of us here at MIP. Thank you all for the help and support you have given, I hope I can give that back to others as they need it.
Hi Jen and prayers for your Grandma. You are where HP thinks you should be at the moment. I can relate to you missing your animals that is really tough to leave them behind. Hope you can get to go over and see them sometimes I guess you are worrying about them being fed properly etc, I would be. Keep posting so we now how you are getting on. Luv Leo xxx