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Hi to all on MIP Board, I have been in a really dark place in my life of late, I felt that I lost me, and my faith and trust in my HP. I know I haven't posted anything for awhile, but I have been reading the sharings, and believe me, they have helped me so much. Just reading them, brought me an awful lot of peace, when I had none inside of myself. Even though I felt so alone with my challenges, when I read the sharings, I felt a part of something, as I could relate to all that was posted. After I read them, I didn't feel so alone, as I knew that there were people just like myself who had challenges in their lives. Believe me, for where I was, it helped me, to keep coming back.
I now know what was causing it. My daughter is a Teacher of 10/11 year olds, in a small Country Town, she lives with me. It is a very, very difficult class to teach, as nearly all of them have major challenges in their lives. With Abuse, Addictions, nearly everything horrible anyone can imagine. My daughter being an adult Child, tries to help them in her own way,about learning a different way, and being different people. She tries to show them everything they haven't got in their young lives, Love, Understanding, Compassion. But when she comes home, I see the affect on her, and we talk about it, as both of us are in Program.
That is what is affecting me, in 2 areas, I see her pain, and it also bringing my childhood affects out. As to hear what these 10/11 years olds are living with it has opened the door of what my childhood was like, very similar to these children's lives, and bringing me much pain. For them, for what they are going through, and for what I went through. For myself, I don't know if that is a good thing for me, or not. But I can remember reading a story of an Alateen Sponsor sharing that listening to the Alateen's Share their story, it helped them get in touch with their pain as a child, and heal from it. That is what I am praying for that, that is what is happening to me, I will be able to take something positive out of my journey for today. As for when my daughter shares, about what is happening within the children's lives, I cry, a lot, for them and my self.
Even though, for a time, I lost my faith and trust in my HP, He has shown me, today, of how much He was in my life, and still is, of how much He helped me learn, of how much He has brought me through. Of the Courage and Strength, and Trust, He taught me to have in Him and myself. The God that I had pre Al-Anon is far from the one I have found in, Al-Anon, He is my friend. One thing I heard that I like from the postings, is about Al-Anon being the Medicine, I really like that, so I am taking that on board, as for today, I really need to take my medicine, and I am just so thankful that I have and know what I have to take.
I hope you all have a beautiful day, and many, many thanks for being here.
Thanks so much for popping in to say Hi, great to see you That sounds like a tough situation for you both, I can't even imagine...lot's going on for kids today, lot's going on for adults.
I, too, am so grateful for Alanon, I hate to think about where I'd be without it. There is so much power in the program as evident by the fact that even when I use just one or two of the tools, I find relief.
Thank you very much for your share, so encouraging to hear how the program is working for you...hang in there
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Paul
"...when we try to control others, we lose the ability to manage our own lives." - Paths to Recovery
Good to see you Wendy.
I can sure relate; it's so hard to share when you are in a dark place. But even so, reading and knowing that others are there with you, and the little reminders of all of the tools we have in our bags when we are ready to use them are really strengthening.
Thanks for checking in. Grateful to you for being here too!
Hi to all, thank you so very much for all your sharings, I can honestly say that they are the glue that keeps me together. I go to a craft group every Wednesday Morning, and I find some much relief and joy, going there and being with so many warm and loving ladies. I can be myself, it is like Al-Anon to me, and especially this MIP board.
I feel the love, Acceptance, and the caring, from both. That is how I can find my Serenity. Regarding the Children in the School, I do pray a lot for them, and hope that some how they can find help to overcome their issues. I also know that I have to look after myself, a lot, on hearing about their journeys, as I learnt that rearing my 3 Children, if they were in pain, saw their pain, then I would take that on board, and suffer with them. It has taken a lot of work and changing, working my program to try to keep that in balance.
Sometimes, like these times, it can be just too much for me to bear. But today, I am feeling better, because I have reached out and taken my medicine.
That sounds like a tough situation for you both, I can't even imagine...lot's going on for kids today, lot's going on for adults.