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Went to church Sunday--preacher talked about letting stuff go, not carrying around our "baggage"--our perceived or even real hurts and disappointments, our troubles. He said that we should let it go, all that stuff just drags us down and makes it pretty impossible to really live life. I left there with the intention of letting go of my baggage--main baggage lately seems to be ex-hubby stuff. I prayed about it, asked my Hp to help me let go and get rid of it. Lo and behold got a nasty letter from ex's attorney this week. Well what I prayed for flew out the window--so bad last night was feeling physically ill--I think I might even be getting an ulcer because of all the "stress" I let my ex put on me. I am so angry with him for him being such an incredible jerk (I'm being nice here), but I am more mad at myself for letting it all get to me. I have several stressors, but he is a big one and I have just been feeling miserable lately because I am letting them get me! Why????? As from another post about slogans--THIS TO SHALL PASS--why can't I get it to stick! I don't want to be miserable, I don't want to be physically ill, I don't want to be out of shape and gaining weight because I am depressed. This is just not smart of me to do to myself!!!! Again today I will pray--I will pray for peace, I will pray to let go of the anger and fear, disappointments, and heartbreak. I will pray that God will handle it all for me because I just can't. God-Please be near.
Hello, hudsond, Thanks for being here. Thanks for your post. In my experience, letting go is a process. It is interesting that right after you heard these ideas in church and you went home and prayed about them in your life, that you would receive the letter from the attorney. That doesn't mean you aren't in the process of letting go! In fact, your letting go can be happening on deeper levels than you know. Hang in there. The Program works, if you work it! Blessings, mebjk
I'm sorry that you are going through this. Maybe the sermon was meant to prepare you for what was to come (attorney letter) so that you could let go and get through it. Best wishes!
i notice for me, that UNTIL i accept and embrace and discharge ALL the emotional pain of EACH hurt/ trauma i suffered, i can't let it go............i am inching my way a long to this end becuz i am owning my anger/outrage/grief and i am embracing it and discharging it.......FEELING the feelings....talking about it.....going to meets and venting if i need......talking with my recovery partner.....TALKING about it WHILE i ponder what SOLUTION is in order................sorry to see u hurting....i know , i have been there...........keep working on U, keep loving/ caring for U, it will come.........ttyl, rosie
