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Yep I know "needing a Higher Power". I thought that I had some powerful stuff going for me based upon my past, my history. Early program was an incredible adventure for me and my life as I experience miracles and had a tight relationship with our program and Higher Power. I have had progressive miracles happen along the way from entry to recovery and on the journey. I knew and know what being "Blessed" was like which also revealed the same thru the experiences of my own alcoholic/addict and so many members in the program. I was certainly aware that miracles were a constant reward beyond expectations at almost any moment no matter the situation whether it was my alcoholic/addict getting clean and sober and/or my survival during life threatening events. There are members in program who witnessed the events and the outcomes along with professionals involved in the processes who could not and did not have solutions for what happened and how things turned out.
I learned after a time I was living in expectations which HP and the entire program was telling me that I was just being blessed and not some powerful guy who could create impossible outcomes just because.
Yesterday I got another reality evidence as I went into dentist procedure with the "Oh I can handle this" assurance and shortly turned into a reminder that I am a now elderly man whose body is more tender and reactive than years ago. I shook, bounced, grunted, groaned and had to be restrained all the while thinking "I can beat this beating". The dentist and her aids were all female and so my ego was exposed. I was a hurting male. I had all kinds of painful fears until it was done and I am left with prayers of gratitude that it happened and turned out as it did.
Yes I thank HP for the crew and what was done yesterday. Today I have to follow that program and tomorrow and the program we belong to.
I spent much time talking to one of the aids about being a recovering man and grateful for the hug she shared with me when we were done twisting, pulling, cleaning and such.
In reality it was painful...very painful at times and then it is over just like the disease of alcoholism and the reading from within my literature. I get to reduce pain heat which means ICE CREAM!! and cleaning. I don't remember having my sponsors or the fellowship tell me to use ice cream to help me gain recovery?
I had you all in mind during the struggle but left my mind in the parking lot. LOL ...
{{{Jerry}}} Empathy for your dental experience. I am going through several unpleasant medical issues myself. Many are age-related, including not bouncing back as I once did. I too am grateful for this program which gives me hope, gratitude, and strength. Every piece of program is a valuable learning moment and life-sustaining tool.
Good Morning Jerry and Lyne. Sending prayers for healing for you both. MIP led me to tools and resources that established the best relationship I've ever had-the one with my Higher Power. The only answers I need come from within. HP knows what's right for me and I have a sense of peace and comfort no matter what ails me physically, mentally and emotionally.
Mahalo Ladies and I am reminded that recovery comes better and easier when I follow the instructions and listen, listen, listen. Also had to use additional joy and happiness steps like this morning attending a young ladies soccer game that our great granddaughter was playing in. Cheering and clapping and laughing and enjoying the happiness HP included in the event reduced the concern and pain soooo much that I have to come home and share it. The great grand daughter was in tears as her competitive nature was overcome by the other team and then we shared hugs, hopes and smiles to come. Where did I ever forget these miracles just waiting to be had?? And to thank you for the ESH coming here to my puter. Love you all.
It is impossible for me to get up next to and near of a flower like this without feeling HP standing next to me. These are the titles for the "healers" in my life. Birds also (of all kinds) who are so majestic. Yesterday the Hawks moved back into the neighborhood and flew circles over our houses. I miss home so much because the name of the hawk is I`o, the name of God. My mainland wife has been captured by their majestic flying too. HP knows how to keep my attention.
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