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I started my day on such a joyous note....then sometimes this afternoon reality hit me....my mom is dying, I am married to an alcoholic, I am unhappy in my daily life and I know I am the only one that can change it.....I will get use to the idea, I will learn to do what I must do to take care of myself. It is a matter of time, there will be no rash or angry decisions, it will be thought out and the concern that I will take care of is me and my boys. Say a little prayer, think of me. I will ask my HP for the strength to do things that I must do. The way my HP has planned for me. I will listen intently to my HP to guide me.
You got it just right, listen, take care, take your time, just remember it is in your HP's time not your own that you will find your answers. I just went through this and the boys and I don't regret a thing, because we talked it out and took our time. Good Luck to you and yours.
Josey
-- Edited by jrtjosey at 11:25, 2006-04-27
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Julianne - It's best to move on. You cannot look back in anger in life. It's too short
You are not alone. Many of us are faced with that big decision including myself. I am not satisfied with my life and I too need to find those things that make me happy. I need to have courage to change jobs. I need to face my A. Thank goodness we all have an HP of our understanding to help us through the difficult time.
marmare, My heart goes out to you. It sounds as if you are accepting what life is bringing you right now, and you can't do better than that. You are taking your time. Thank you HP for all these things! It is hard to be losing your mom. I will keep you in my prayers. I've been there. Blessings and prayers, mebjk
My heart breaks for you and your family. Sometimes the realization hits us like a ton of bricks. I thank your son for being in service to our country. It is a brave thing he does. I'm glad he is coming home. My love and prayers for your family. May your Mom find peace and serenity. I too watched my mother leave this earth. Know that she's at peace with her HP. Your HP will guide you through this. Your love and strength will see you and your family through. We're here for you.
(((((((((((((Love and blessings to you and your family my friend))))))))))))))))))))
Live strong, Karilynn
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I am sorry, I can truely relate to your feelings.. Today, i woke up feeling blue too !! Feeling that because of my weakness I pay the price.. !! Because of my husbands alcoholism which leads the verbal abuse mine and my childrens lives are in turmoil all the time. I am weak i know, so today I ask my HP too !!! " please LORD, give me strength !! Show me YOUR way then take my hand and DRAG me " (haha)
Know that you are not alone my friend.. you are not alone !!