The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I had a bit if a down day yesterday. Was triggered by events from the late 80's. I believed that I was railroaded by a couple of doctors- at the treatment centre I was at- as a family member. Sometimes I think- okay- they must have been right. And other times I believe no- I must learn to stick up for myself more.
Two years ago i was at a reunion there- which gave me closure. The centre has long closed down. Today there are no residential centre in the whole of NZ. Over the last few days there have been a lot of transactions on the reunion page, for this centre, on facebook.
In the 80's the centre was run by a traditional psychiatrist from Britain. I had dealing with him before and after my "treatment". I was able to get into some a training forum he ran after the hospital closed- and get answers. And also to make some personal input/ give feedback into the treatment of family members.
Only the dedicated, really, came to the reunion. Afterwards it was decided to apply to the government to get Dr Robert a Queens award for his services to medicine. I was one of two people who drew up the citation to go forward, for this.
I hadn't actually heard of any outcomes for this. Hadn't followed up really. But a google search revealed that he got his high award in October last year.
The reunion members are spread all over the country and beyond- and so we were able to celebrate this success through our facebook link.
But yesterday I fell foe to "what might have been" if I had not taken steps to put my life to rights. To try and achieve a balance.
And, for me, the only way to maintain a balance is by participating, and by finding place to share regularly.