The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
A person I have made up my mind to contact and make an amends to for something I selfishly did years ago which might have been very dangerous answered a FB request from me this morning. I had time to think my plan over and was in the process of taking control and at the keyboard of my computer when my wife walked up to me and handed me my cell phone. "You have a call", she says. I take the phone and look at the incoming call and it is my sponsor telling me that it is okay for this Saturday to meet and talk after my morning home group. B I G S M I L E.... That is how my HP works and I had to laugh and not send my post cause I need to not take this one into my own hands without HP and sponsor involved. HP was telling me "Lets get your sponsor in on this one also". I can now fill my sponsor in on the inventory of what happened years ago which might have affected so many others. That's enough from me about this...more later as HP directs. ((((hugs))))
Thanks Hoot...there is a meeting in a half hour just down the way from here...gonna go...need to go and take my ego and self centeredness some old defects of character seem to be standing around and hanging around just outside of my reach and I'm reaching with out sensing it. I'll take the wink. ((((hugs))))
Yeah, the Higher Power moves in mysterious ways, ain't no question about it. I, too, was about to do something and it's late and I should be sleeping but still I checked the message board one last time and there was your post and I thought, you know, he's right. There's someone I need to talk to first.
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Not all my days are priceless, but none of them are worthless, anymore.
Thanks for the share Jerry and for the ESH from all...I am perpetually amazed at how HP steps in over and over again...I am one who tries to remember to look for the miracles each day as they are all around us/me - big and small!
Have a great day all and hope your meeting was awesome Jerry. I got a HP nudge yesterday regarding my youngest...he'd been over Wednesday, and the relationship is improving yet we are still distant in many ways. He brought up borrowing money for a car and I imposed my 'closed bank' boundary. After he left, I felt sad for many reasons, mostly for how the disease has affected him, me and us. I then sat with my feelings and realized fear was creeping in - fear that my boundary would send our relationship backwards as my boys mostly find me when they want/need something.
I was pleasantly amazed as I went through my day that he reached out in spite of me saying 'No'....I know this was my HP telling me that it's OK to have boundaries, focus on me and put me first. I was having doubts - as a parent, saying No to a child is so hard - even when they are adults!
(((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
