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Next weekend I am going away with some program friends. My husband and I are getting along great so now I am having a hard time getting myself to go. I have all ready paid my money. I know that I am going to have a wonderful time once get past this unknown stuff going through my head.
Once I am in the car I will be very excited it just getting myself to do that. This is going to be my frist time every going so far from my husband. I will be 5 and half hours a way. But when I get up there is going to be alot of program people.
The other thing is that I am living with my husband grown son and we are starting to get along better. He has now gotten a desk top computer. He is looking to me for help on it. Which I am excited because he is looking up to me. He actually called me mom when we were calling ups it felt kind of werid and good.
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You must be feeling so anxious! I have a hard time leaving my a as well. I have had to on occasssion go to a workshop. I have a hard time working my program and I end up worrying the whole time I'm gone.
Just try to remember you are doing something good for you! I'm sure it will be helpful to have others from the program along with you. You will have a good time and you will help each other relax!
Try to focus on you.
Good luck, I'm glad things are going well between you and your a and his son!
What a nice update. So cool about your son. They are just four year olds in huge bodies uno.
Hey go away!!! Being missed is wonderful. Be nice for you to miss him too. Sounds like you are going to have a great time. Make sure ya update us when ya get back.
Getting away is great. Good for you. Remember to relax. This is suppose to be fun for you. Everyone will still be at home when you get back. You will only be gone for a couple of days. I always found that whenever my husband and I were away from each other for a couple of days, reuniting was wonderful. "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". Try to think about yourself this weekend and what you are doing not about home and what is going on there.
ok, funny lil' about me story; I get really anxious when I have to travel. Be away from home. Used to tell myself, I cant go away for a few days. Who will take care of everything. What if something happens? Silly... silly thoughts. So, when I would travel in order to stop getting all anxious... i will go and stand in my favorite window... look at the yard through the window and say to myself... " i will be standing right here in another few days." I know I will be ok... I know everything here will be ok too. the yard will waiting to be mowed, and it did. The birds will wait for the feeders to be filled, and they do. And as soon as I would get home, i go and stand in that window and see that everything was still O-K. I was ok. The birds are ok, and still at the feeders. the yard is fine and still needs mowing and the house stillllll needs to be cleaned. (((haha))) Everything did just fine. I did just fine. Didnt think about being at home hardly at all while i was gone either.. and if i did I abruptly told myself "its doing just fine" and then i immediately let the thought go. now each time i travel, i do the same thing and i feel more andmore a comfort. i know everything will be ok. ((lol))
SEEeee....IT will be just fine. This will be a good thing. I just feel it. ((BigHug))
Do you know the reason for your anxiety? Maybe if you can pinpoint that you can take action to comfort yourself.
You have a program and friends now and you have fun things to do. Also, things are getting better at home and while you might feel more comfortable to be able to go away, you may feel more guilty or miss 'em more.
The bottom line is you've come a long way and you deserve this.
Bob
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I understand you are feeling very anxious. One of the things I try to remember is that this disease is one that causes isolation. Any opportunity I have to get out and be with people is very important to me. I often find myself having to force myself out of the house and dreading every minute of it, but once I get there, I have a blast. I sometimes have to ask a friend to remind of how important this was to me when I made the plans and talk to me if I start to back out. You are going to enjoy it so much!!
This will be a good thing. I just feel it. ((BigHug)) 
