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The last couple of days I have been thinking and believing in the power of prayer. Someone gave me a book called "The Power of the Praying Wife" by Stormie Omartian. This book is based for the woman who has committed to praying for her husband/partner. She talks about personal experiences and experiences of friends and clients who have committed to praying for their spouses. In reading this book I recalled a time for me in college when my family and I had prayer sessions and Bible studies every week. We wrote our prayer requests down and began praying in our sessions for our friends and other family members. Every week we shared anything good that happened that we were praying for. It was amazing!! The blessings we saw began to overflow, we saw people being healed and saw HP working things out that seemed to be hopeless for us and the person we were praying for. I have always heard that two or more in prayer is powerful.
I have begun praying deeply for my recovery and for HP to quell the anxiety and fears I have regarding myself and my "a". I want to feel secure about myself and with my relationship, but as most of you have experienced when trust has been broken its hard to repair. The interesting part about this book is its steeped in detachment. Learning to be silent when your partner is unable to hear your feelings or take responsibility for his actions. It drives home the idea that when conflict arises or the "a" has done something that affects us to stop and pray and then respond. This is paramount for me because I am such a reactionary. I have really felt a conviction upon my heart about my anger, worry, and impatience especially with my children. I hold onto anger and worry which does not benefit me one bit. It keeps me in state of turmoil and I lose my focus. I'm looking forward to the changes that are going to happen and thankful for the changes that have already begun.
Just wanted share,
Twinmom~
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"The people who don't mind matter and the people who mind, don't matter". (Dr. Seuss)
Thank you so much for your share, it was so good to hear someone feeling the same things as me but it was also wonderful to hear about you praying. I need to pray more for myself, I always pray for my a, but I have sins of my own that I commit everyday, like taking my anger with my words out on children, to name the one highest on my list.
I have been following your posts, and I wanted to let you know how meaningful your posts are to me. I've gotten alot out of your discussion of how you're working to heal emotionally and respond differently than you have in the past. I can really see your progress each time you post. Yeah, yeah, yeah!
Your post on prayer really touched me. Families, especially alcoholic families are so complicated and complex. There's so much I'm powerless over--and I tend to get discouraged because I try to fix, fix, fix and it doesn't work. Your idea to pray for, about, on these issues and for healing really speaks to me, and I plan to start doing this for myself and for those in my life with whom I sometimes have seemingly "irresolvable" conflicts.
