I have been doing a lot of thinking today about the Serenity Prayer and thinking about the three parts of it and how they apply to my life.

I cannot change my husband having an addiction or the choices he makes, but I can have the courage to be supportive of him and the courage to love him and detach with compassion.

My daughter threw my yorkie puppy on the kitchen floor this morning and it broke his neck and he died.  I was very distraught and very angry with her.  My mother-in-law told me to bring the puppy and my two year old to her house.  We said good bye to Mr. Piddle together and she reminded me that I can't change what happened.  She helped me to let go of my anger by telling me that she knew I was upset, but my daughter did not mean to kill him and didn't understand what she had done.  She thought he was sleeping.  My husband came home from work right away and buried him.  He held me and comforted me.  He had been craving some today and he took all the money he had in his pocket and went out and bought me a 6 week old yorkiepoo.  We named him Mr. Pooh.  I was scared to get another dog and love it.  I had the courage and fell in live immediately.

I can't change my ex, his behavior or words.  I can't change the fact that he took my daughter, but I can have the courage to try to get her back.  I don't have to sit around and wait on him to return her.  I was adopted when I was eight years old and I know what it feels like to think your mother doesn't want you.  I know that is what he's been telling her.  He doesn't tell her about the times I call and want to visit and he tells me he will have me arrested for trespassing.  She may not want to come home today, but she will know I love her enough to try.  She will know I love her enough that I will not give up. 

I come here for my wisdom and feel I am learning more and feeling more each day.  Some days I might have several small realizations and I may go a few days with none.  I have a long way to go, but it's Progress not Perfection I am aiming for.