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haven't been on the boards as much as my back is out AGAIN, and i am wondering how long i can go b4 i am disabled....i will do all i can to take care of me, but not expect too much...day to day, just trying to work on the soft tissue "knots" i find in there, and doing my cleansing diet to rid me of toxins......
THAN i have a dog with diarrhea that i canot get rid of...so no food and pepto bismal for a while, can't afford vet bill right now....so homopathic treatment......its been one thing after another, and like U i am tryin to figure out what i want in life, but dodging so many bullets,
can't use my clothes washer cuz the drain pipe clog, i can't get rid of......used a whole bottle of liquid plummer and it sucks...not worth half the hype......so i will buy an auger and try THAT.......sometimes i just want to throw up my hands and say "i QUIT-- i can take anymore".......
i was finding myself "scrambling" trying to keep up with the disasters, and this am decided to "walk away" and let them all go....just not respond to it......do what i can to take care of / nurture me and walk way....make adjustments, make best of it.............
i guess i am done venting now...vented to my sponser too...i am just sick to DEATH of unwanted events happening.....AND being in hellish back pain does not help....., i just wanted u all to know that i am thinking of u all as i try to keep from drowning here........
life can be just too much sometimes...that is when i just hunker down and try adn take care of me....quit fighting it like i do............hugs/ rosie
That's what I am doing today! Stepping back from some things today. I felt extremely overwhelmed. So, I want to apply First Things First and Easy Does It when I get off the computer. Maybe the rest of the day will go better. I tried to rush out the door with my coffee (no lid) and burned my hand----so back inside to rinse under cold water (I am OK). So, what was I doing this a.m. Running on RUSH and ANXIETY. What I have to do can wait until later, and will get done before I go to bed. Just sitting here with my rear planted is so calming I can imagine what my day would be like if I had just tried to keep on going!
Glad I have the program to start my day over at any time.
I have had a number of things happen recently that threw me off the loop and bring up anxiety. I definitely have my financial issues and I am trying to attend to those both short term and long term. I am doing the footwork and turning it over. I do feel better having a space to vent and people who are interested in me. I always feel chronically the A is not interested on any level and really only involved with himself. There is no "team" in our relationship there is him and his tantrums.
I know for me keeping it simple helps. Sometimes there is a lot of things that don't get resolved for a long time and then out of nowhere they do get resolved. I am praying your dog gets better. One of my cats had larynigitis for a while and he was ok otherwise. I find it hard to say they cannot go to the vet but on the other hand I have spent thousands on vet bills and sometimes it was for stuff I could resolve myself. I just do not like having the option of going at all.
so sorry for all the junk!!! I know it gets so overwhelming at times!! I hope that you start to feel better very soon !!!!! Take it easy! I don't have any wonderful words to share I just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you and am sympathizing with you.
Rosie, I am sorry you have all this difficulty right now. Please know that you are a constant source of comfort and hope to me and many others on this board, and that we are sending you good wishes. The good thing about everything piling up on you at once is, it gets it all out of the way for awhile.
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I know exactly what u mean, ((((doggie))) ((((((Rosie))))))
I've smashed a pepto & given a bit of it to my cat b4, she is only 5# & has a sick stomach constantly.
The weekend before last, I did get down, feeling hopeless, thinking about money woes, projecting. Gee get a mind weed or two of sucidal ideation & bam! God says, well you pray to me everyay: "Thank Your I'm alive, Your will be done & I align myself to it, and surrender myself & others to You. Use me as a tool as long as You deem me worthy." BAM! A car crash & my car is considered "trashed" by the insurance company. Air bags being 4-5K to replace kinda put it over the edge... my estimate was for mearly 7K$ plus $1,500 at the ER.
So I've slept a lot & thought... actually I have thought little & just tried to stop obsessing. I was REALLY depressed over it ~ I love my Seabring convertible
A friend sd to think about what the "Godsend is" so I did & I haven't been depressed in a couple of days & things are beginning to work out.
Life is hard & sucky some times - other ppl give me inspiration cuz I sure don't know how I'd get through what they go through but I know, 'we aren't supposed to compare ourselves.'
This too shall pass or everything changes. I'm working on gratitude these days. You are strong, and since your down I'll ask God to send some Angles to watch over You. Take care, lots of hugs, love & light, love, -K
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.