Hi everyone,

I haven't posted for awhile.  I have been keeping up with other's posts, reading, replying etc.  Just thought I would take a moment for a quick update.  My A and I are still separated.  I have been finding that I am very lonely lately, but still plugging away.  I have been getting very involved with f2f meetings, three a week and starting some service.  I got a sponsor, and began some step work.  It is all so tiring.  I want to get better, to have clarity, but this disease is unbelievable.  There are times that I just want to go back, throw in the towel so to speak.  Could it have been that bad?  Well, yeah!  The shares on this board certainly keep that real for me.  Not to mention that  not much is changing with my A. He is sober today, so that is new, has about 75 days.   We speak each day, he is still not working and doesn't seem to concerned about that, is studying for his CDL license and says he will find work with that.  A great lesson in expectations for me.  I would be doing anything in the meantime to see that my family was taken care of, bills paid etc....but then again, I am doing that, so why should he. lol.

So here I am today, better than I was a few months ago with the love, support and encouragement of Alanon.  But still a work in progress, that is for sure. 

Grateful for all of you, me and My Higher Power, Where would I be?

Lynn