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well, the end of another day. finally whew I did end up calling him, but waited to do it on my 15 min break at work so i would not get too involved in it, just say hi and ask how he is and move along.
it went well. he asked after a bit if i miss him, and i just said i don't want to talk about that and he changed the topic right away. i feel a bit better tonight i think because i did have a simple nice conversation with him in which i got asked about how i am and what 's going on in my life for a change, instead of only hearing how he is and everythign he is doing.
its hard, i don't wanna get too close, but i don't wanna get too far away. i love him but feel the need to protect myself from him too.
now i'm kinda walking on eggshells around MYSELF sheesh!
Carefulll........caarreefullll.... sigh -- me vs. me
Soon you won't feel like you are walking on your own eggshells. When I first began to change my behaviors and reactions, it felt sooooooooooooo weird. Like I wanted to crawl out of my skin (especially during chaos) but like we teach our children, with practice practice practice, you can improve your skills.
So glad you are here,
Maria123
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
....caarreefullll.... sigh -- me vs. me
