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"[The] Power that brought us to this program is still with us and will continue to guide us if we allow it."Basic Text, p. 26Ever had a panic attack? Everywhere we turn, life's demands overwhelm us. We're paralyzed, and we don't know what to do about it. How do we break an anxiety attack?First, we stop. We can't deal with everything at once, so we stop for a moment to let things settle. Then we take a "spot inventory" of the things that are bothering us. We examine each item, asking ourselves this question: "How important is it, really?" In most cases, we'll find that most of our fears and concerns don't need our immediate attention. We can put those aside, and focus on the issues that really need to be resolved right away. Then we stop again and ask ourselves, "Who's in control here, anyway?" This helps remind us that our Higher Power is in control.
_________rosie____it seems everwhere i turn this past few weeks, life is hurling shit at me.....i feel like i am under attack...i am shellshocked...the only thing i can think to do is FERVENT prayer....THROWING the blood of jesus at the demons....yes, i know life can be just life, but i also know that when it is constant, and there is no lesson in it really and i KNOW i am "showing up and working my program---open to my HP" than it is demonic attack.....there IS evil here..there are demons roaming , looking for souls to beat down....and they will if i try to fight them on my own power....this is where the first 3 steps come in to play...i may be powerless but my hp is not...so i am offering myself and my possessions up to my god for protection, as i do what i can to be careful, and watch and pay attention to the traps.........
_______rosie______.yes STOP....let things settle.....this am, WAS important........i had a horrific scare....another bullshit event over which i felt totally helpless...totally out of control....... my beautiful lab female had fallen off the couch somehow in the EARLY am hours...i heard this "crashing sound" and jumped out of bed, ran to the living room and there she was under the coffee table, and she was not able to get up/ just kind of thrashed around....i was SURE she had broken her back....i felt myself almost go out of my body, like i did during the abuse...like i was shutting down, couldn't take this "head on"........i felt myself going into "denial" becuz it was too horrific for me to "process" right at that point...but i guess the program training kinda "kicked in" anyway becuz i DID SOMETHING!!! i took action....... i just held her and rubbed her and calmed her down,....i "STOPPED" the action on her part and on my own, to let things "settle"....than as i rubbed her and talked with her, she got up!!! she was a bit unsteady on her feet but she got up...i let her outside for a minute and she walked around, and seemed to gain her footing with each passing few minutes....i watched her for about 3 hours, she was able to have her "biscuit" and i gave her her heartworm chew tab and she was seemingly ok.......this WAS important.....and it DID need my immediate attention, but i was able to just STOP things to calm her and me down...... this issue needed my attention right away...... i immediately thanked god for allowing her to be able to get up and be ok..........
We seek our Higher Power's will for the situation, whatever it is. We can do this in any number of ways: through prayer, talks with our sponsor or NA friends, or by attending a meeting and asking others to share their experience. When our Higher Power's will becomes clear to us, we pray for the ability to carry it out. Finally, we take action.Anxiety attacks need not paralyze us. We can utilize the resources of the NA program to deal with anything that comes our way.Just for today: My Higher Power has not brought me all this way in recovery only to abandon me! When anxiety strikes, I will take specific steps to seek God's continuing care and guidance.
_______rosie______i think for a minute i was afraid of my HP's will, becuz i have had so much tragedy in my life..i still associate the tragedies with being god's will....like his will is the enemy and that is maybe why i fight and resist so much....becuz i have this illusion of thinking i can control the outcome if i fight hard enough......this am , however, i was "readying" my mind to "give her up" to call the animal shelter to come pick her up and put her down becuz i was sure she broken her back.....i was kinda "releasing her" in my mind....but i know i was in shock....the surprising thing is that i did not "rage" i took action....i STOPPED her from trying to thrash around, and i just kinda held her down....STOPPING the action, so i could just rub her and see what / how bad she was.......i know, i am really beginning to know that god does NOT visit tragedy/ pain/ suffering on us--- the old "testing" i don't believe that my hp "tests me" i think either its just life , or the forces of darkness trying to derail me from my focus on my hp and recovery......either way, the old "why did u hurt my dog??" mentality begain to kick in , and than i dismissed that....i needed to calm my dog....not go after god for yet another "wonderful event"......when it was over, i was amazed, that i did NOT rage/ scream at god/ rage at my "karma" / i just took care of business!!! like screw the raging/ screaming at god......take ACTION....even if it was to "give her over" ...i am seeing that god is NOT the one who made my life a living hell, it was first my perp, and than the horrible mental/emotional effects of his evil, that caused me to STAY in the darkness....
_______rosie____ i am seeing that god is the ONLY way i am going to get THROUGH this.......like lately i have felt like i am "under attack" just one thing after another....not serious stuff...not real dangerous stuff , UNTIL this morning...and even then, she eneded up shaken but OK....but u know what i mean---- one thing after another....like i am "dodging bullets" one after another....so i decided to pray more.....give my life over more...... begin AND end my day with prayer/ meditation, and really align, ATTACH myself to my higher power........i think i did good this morning, instead of raging/ out of control screaming---anger, i STOPPED and accessed and took action the best i could AS i prepared myself to perhaps "giving her up"......the thought of that makes me physicaly ill....i love my dogs..they are my "kids"........this morning i prayed the blood of jesus over them, and i asked god, what did he/she/it need me to do..what prayer did the source need to hear to break UP these attacks on me....i prayed for guidence and protection......it was a scary morning...i am still in shock over it.....my beautiful black lab, lying under the coffee table, not being able to get up, and eyes wide in panic, and here i am trying to comfort her and calm her down so i could see "how bad it was" ...i left for work, about 3 hours after the accident adn she seemed ok for me to leave.....i am a bit apprehensive, i mean i will feel REALLY reassured when i get home tonight and she is still ok.......i know, i am working to surrender the outcome to god, but i gotta be honest...i am still real worried about her.....i didn't feel "bad" about leaving for work, so perhaps that is my inner hp, saying "its gonna be ok".......its just 3 years ago i had another beautiful black lab have an accident and her little neck was busted.....she got progressivly worse and $600 later, the vet tells me they can't do any more for her...so $600 and a dead dog on top of it.........i guess that old memory still lingers in my head.......that was the summer i lost her to the accident and 2 puppies to parvo, one month apart from each other.......talk about being under attack.....i finally had to just go outside and cry and throw up my hands and say "i can't take it anymore----i give up" and i cried for hours......the crap finally stopped after i had lost 3 of my "kids"....it was god awful!!! so i am going to be forgiving of myself over my fear for this one......i prayed over "cory" too, and she STILL ended up dying after much suffering.........so today?? i am praying that my karma is better and my life will be with more peace and less hell becuz i am WILLING and i am TRYING and i am in recovery and i am being as honest and humble as i know to be to myself and my HP........thanks for listening......
Sweetheart, I do wish I had the power to calm your mind and make everything better. I would do it in a heartbeat. Trust that your HP will guide you through all the misery and pain. Try to keep yourself strong; strength is of most importance in times of trouble. Focus straight ahead to a better time and don't deviate from that path.
Your dear Lab may have suffered a seizure. Elilepsy comes on out of the blue in some breeds. What you describe sounds very much like an epileptic seizure. That's not the end of the world for your beloved dog, believe me. But she does require a visit to the vet and medications to control the seizures, if that is what happened. Sometimes a dog will have a seizure, and it never again will happen. But to be on the safe side, have her checked out.
With loving care, Diva
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rsl, it does sound like your dog may have had a seizure to me as well. My got suffers from them. We did phenobarb for awhile. Then we had to increase that until we evenually needed a bromide solution as well. Potasium Bromide I think. If you ever need to go that route buy it online. Vet charged $90 but I found it for $45. lol
prayers for you and your children {{rsl}}
Bob
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hey "bumpy" and diva, i looked at her and for some reasonn, i don't think it was seizure, but a bad dream like my boss said....the reason why is she was aware the whole time, and desperate to get back up....looking me in the eyes...
my boss and i agreed that she may have had a bad dream, and , in the dark, tumbled off the couch...got kinda disoriented and ended up under the coffee table...cuz when i came in she looked at me right off, she was wide eyed and scared, but seemed better as soon as i came in , she was just trying to get up.......i think she "pulled" a muscle on her front shoulder becuz she was kinda "light" on the left side...like i could see she was sore!!!!
i thought seizure too, but telling my boss about it, when i was calmer, i remember her being aware and looking at me, ......i hope i am right....i dont' know seizure just doesn't resonate with me, but a bad dream does, cuz i have seen them have bad dreams and twitch and cry in their sleep and look like they want to "get away" and moving suddenly "away from the scary thing"........
i used to have a lab that did have ONE seizure, in her whole life and i watched it/ comforted her and it was diferent than this situation....
i think she fell and banged into the cofee table going down, and ended up under it cuz it is so close to the couch.....
i'll tell ya, i am exhausted from the panic feeling i had ...... u can bet i am going to watch her, if it ever happends again, than yeah, my boss and i might be wrong.....but for SOME reason, when she said that i was like "omg, i think that is it" like it resonated with me......my poor girl, i hope and pray that she doesn't have that crap....she is only 7, just turned 7 and such a good doggie....i just hate to see my "kids" suffer....this am, i accidently and slightly (thank goodness) pinched the tail of one of my rats when i was closeing their door, i close it slowly and gently cuz they want to visit with me and i am afraid of their little paws and tails getting pinched.....well "miss rat" had her tail just so i couldn't see it but enuf in the path of her door that when i began shutting it, she squeeked!!!, i felt so bad, i reached in her cage ( i have two rats---both females and they are sooo sweet) anyway, i reached in and picked her up and held her for a bit apologizing all over the place and she was kissing my face.....i love my animals dearly and this thing w/ my betsy really has me upset......i really had to work step 3 on this one............thanks u guys, i appreciate it.......hugs/ rosie
It could be that when Betsy fell off she threw her back out (subluxated it & punched some nerves) this would cause great pain & the inability to move depending on where it happened in her spine. Wish you were here in Houston, hon, I have the greatest chiropractor & he works with horses & dogs ~ my mom's Sebastian (mini-schnauzer) doesn't bark as much & his allergies have improved since he's gone.
You asked for prayers for protection, so here goes:
Divine Physician of our souls, You who love us more than we know how to love, visit Your suffering servants Rosie & Betsy right now, outstretch Your loving arms that are full of healing, cure, comfort & allow them to feel Your life giving spirit. Heal Betsy & Rosie from sickness & bitter pain & do away with their weakness, as You are gracious & love all of Your creatures. Protect them both from visible & invisible enemies, send a legion of Angels to protect & guard over them. I Your humble servant, ask this of You on behalf of my friends, in the name of Your Holy spirit, All of Your Saints & Your legions of Angels. Amen.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
hey all, thanks for the prayers...MUCHLY appreciated
my old dog "zoe" is so gimpy on her left side, i think she and betsy got into an argument and bets was the one who fell off the couch and landed on the floor...she is doign ok, but old zoe, i have a feeling was part of the "rukus" this am, and she is 11 and just so sore....i am giving her aspirin, and making her stay quiet....i just have a feeling that these two "got into it" and i only saw the ONE dog this am, showing trouble when it could very well be both.....zoe was fine last night now?? sore and hardly walking....so i think she and "bets" got into a squabble.......i am just going to make the "girls" stay quiet and away from each other till things are better..........
thanks to all of U...i went for prayer session with my friends today....its just been one thing after another, so its step THREE for me BIG TIME................ i am turning ALL this over, after i know i have done all i can do.............hugs to all/ rosie
Rosie I have had panic attacks in the past and they are horrible but you worked through it really well. I have two dogs as well and I call them the "girls" also. Often enjoy just a night with me and the girls. Give them lots of cuddles and I am really proud of you for getting everything back to a calm level. LUv Leo xx
