The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Boy do I have some bottled up emotions. Went to my third f2f meeting today at lunch. Didn't talk but at the end one of he members was walking out of the meeting with me and just ask who my A was. Started bawling right on the spot and really couldn't stop for an hour. Thank god for two of the nice members who stayed behind to talk with me. It is amazing how you can go from feeling fine to bawling in one second. I don't think I have cried this much in the last three weeks as I have in 10 years. Feels good to get these emotions out and to finally be doing something about my situation and going to meetings. It also feels good to not pretend that everything is ok anymore. Hope everyone has a great weekend. Mine is starting out in tears but hopefully will end up with a lot more smiles.
Holding all that in takes up a lot of energy! Thanks for sharing, I have a fear of losing it at the wrong place, at the wrong time. Sounds like you broke down in the perfect place :) I hope it feels like a little weight has been lifted. Have a smiley weekend.
My first f2f meeting ended in tears, too. (And, it was a lunch meeting...) Sometimes I think that I hold on to the pain so firmly, it takes something major (or at least something more than I can handle at the perfect moment) in order to allow me to release it.
Hope you feel lighter and have a lovely weekend!
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Skorpi
If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu
Good going to your ftf meetings, you will find much love and
support. Its where your recovery really begins by breaking the
isolation the disease Causes.
I just listened and often cried for two years. I was crying today
And i just went into another room to get myself together. It is
okay.
Keep going back for you and your own healing. It is a long hard
Journey to emotional health. Let your HP hold your hand.
Alanon is still very New to me. But going to meetings and coming here to the board has been so helpful. I cry everywhere, meeting, grocery store, work, when I'm the car or alone is the worst! I feel it's ok. I'm letting out all the hurt and anger that's been built up for years. With meeting and talking to everyone here I know there are smiles and tear free days in my future. One day at a time!!
I bottled it up for years... I didn't cry through anything at all...not by beloved fathers unexpected death, not my ex AHs abuse, nothing. I cried at my first al anon meeting 4 months ago and it was like the flood gates opened. I literally cried every day, many times a day, for about a month. Since then, I'm evening out to what I would consider a healthy amount of crying,
