The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Since my AH put our lives at risk by drinking and driving and flipping our car, and my job loss, I have found more peace and passion than I have ever had.
These events opened my eyes to some hard truths that I have been ignoring- my unprofessional behavior at work, lack of motivation to take care of myself and my surroundings, and the way I was treating those I love the most. I felt sorry for myself for about 3 days, and then kicked my butt in gear. Now I attend al-anon regularly, dove head first into a new career, and have come to understand that I am not in control. And thats okay.
The accident humbled my AH. He apologizes, corrects his behavior, seeks out help, and admits his short comings. We were on the verge of divorce and now our relationship has never been stronger. Don't worry- I am not deluded to the fact that this means he is "cured". Nor am I. But we're on the right track.
I don't want to be all sun shine and rainbows because there is still a lot of hardwork to be done and some very stressful times in front of us. His court date, legal bills, relationship repairing. But now that I have gotten off my high horse and realized that *I* need help, I feel confident that better times are yet to come.
And you know what? 1.5 months after deciding to go into IT I already have my first contract job lined up. Karma. :)
Nothing wrong with sunshine and rainbows, to me its progress. Great post, it was a crisis, or a a build up of crisis's that got me into recovery too. Keep working it, it gets better and better.
