The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am finally getting someone to come look at the water damage in my basement. It feels good to be able to be responsible. I am also going to start cleaning one room at a time for spring cleaning. One step at a time ....
I am going to spend the afternoon working at a coffee shop with windows.
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Skorpi
If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu
Im doing laundry,working on couponing,picking up stuff in house. ah is back from rehab and i need to distract so i dont obsess watching him and feeling like i have to tell him things.....
I'm leading a boy scout trip to an indoor climbing center tonight. Its a lot of logistical work, making sure we have enough boys to go for minimum class sizes, making sure everyone gets waivers, permission slips, health forms and money in to me, making sure that the money all balances out etc. But its great knowing that I can do this without having to worry about what my AW is doing, not letting it paralyze me, and especially not letting fear of failure paralyze me. Oh, fear of failure tried to paralyze me a number of times in this, but I worked through it due to my self-awareness from the tools.
I also found out that this qualifies me to earn the final portion of my Wood Badge training, the highest training level for a scout leader.
I finally brought myself to go pick up my dog's ashes at the vet. It's been two weeks since I had the little guy put down because he was so sick from diabetes. I couldn't bring myself to go until today. I am relieved to know it's done now and can maybe start the healing process.
Tonight my A got a call from her alcoholic friends who moved (thank God) across the country. It's the only call that she leaves the room for. If I start to focus on the contact, I make myself stop. There is nothing good to come from obsessing about negative stuff. That will only hurt me. My job now is to focus on me, my tasks for this evening, and tomorrow is another, new day. I will look forwrard to it. Lyne
