The reason(I think) that I don't post much anymore is because I am no longer in a crisis. That should never be an excuse for me. I know that I have a lot to be of assistance to others. It isn't about me. I just hope in the future I am not apprehensive about being there for anyone. I used to feel like I had so much to offer before. I guess because I am slowing down so much, I have a different perspective. I have less interest in a lot of things. I even went to a F2F meeting in my hometown yesterday & didn't feel satisfied at all. Our meetings are sometimes just rap sessions. One or two of the members walked out early. I am not sure if they were tired of the nonsense or just plain tired. I am hoping that since one of them is my neighbor, we can connect later. She & I haven't been spending too much time together as before during my manic crazy time. I am not available like I was either. I sometimes would rather do things at home. My AH is on a trip to trim some shoes for horses out of town w/ a program friend.. I have ample opportunity to get things done. But will I?

Ramble ramble. I am on a roll that I need to get off. I am going to have to remember when too much is too much!

Kathleen