The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
The C2C for today speaks about working the steps and being afraid of having our defects removed. Many of us feel that will be an empty shell if these defects are lifted.
The reading points out that in no way nor in any step do we ever ask HP to add anything to us. We only request that our negative attitudes be removed. The reason we do this is because these negative tools have been hiding all your assets. It points out that we did not lose ourselves at all. We're just buried ourselves in the negativity. Our strength skills, compassion, empathy, love can fully become part of our life as soon as we are ready to have our negative tools lifted.
Today's reminder states; "God knows exactly what I need and has already given it to me. My job is to keep it simple and ask for God's help in relieving the my extra stuff the shortcomings that keep me tied down."
The quote is an American proverb; "before sunlight can shine through a window,the blinds must be raised."
Oh I am so excited because I would love to go back to the caring and compassion that I had before!!! Makes me want to work harder i know it is still there ... Just covered somehow !!!!
Thank you Betty for the reading and topic : ) I think for at least the first three years I worked my recovery like I had the rest of my life with perfectionism as the goal. I won't say that perfectionism is not still a problem, but I have learned how to hang a lot looser than I used to be able to. I have learned to laugh at myself. I thought I would remove all my defects, I had skipped acceptance. The truth is I will always struggle with them to some extent, but these days I am a lot more gentle with myself and looking back I would have told the old me "Go easy, be gentle with yourself" If I had a slip I would beat myself up for a day or two. I don't beat myself up anymore. I am human and so is everyone else. I do make a amend where I need to and then I am free. For four years I could not look others in the eye when I shared. One day I had the courage to do it. God gave me that courage. Thank you for letting me share
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I needed these behaviors in my past they helped me survive I'm finding new and better ways to not just survive but thrive