The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
All I can do, is focus on me, control me & change me. Sad for this to be so difficult & guilt laden for us but it still takes me some work & hard focus some days, to just allow myself to consider my wants, needs & desires. It gets easier with practise, just like forgiveness.
I had to forgive myself b4 I could forgive others. Had to forgive me for loving others compulsively & neglecting myself. I am human & entitled to pursue happiness & serenity, I do not deserve to be abused or neglected. None of us do!
We all deserve to be respected, to value ourselves, recognize our divine light & be happy, serene & free.
Letting go of kicking myself was tough too.
I wake up each day now & leap out of bed smiling, thanking God I'm still here & surrenderring my will to HP's. I give everything to God ~ willingly & freely offering it up as a sacrifice I surrender my anger, hurt, pain, physical ills, other people, you name it, I surrender it!
This is how I stay in the now & focus on me, thank You God for never leaving me & showing me that I am worth my own good/pure love.
Getting better & better, one day at a time, -Kitty of Light
-- Edited by kitty at 19:29, 2006-02-24
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
Awesome share.I really admire the way you are taking control of your life and the amazing strength in your posts.
You've come a long,long way down a very difficult road. It's so good to see you with your hands firmly on the wheel. You go girl......you're doing GREAT!!!!
