It is bad enough that I am bone tired.I am still rechecking my every move. I think I ccan handle this one day at a time. It has been years since he left me on a total episode. For those who don't knowh has bp gambling addict & alcoholic. He has been sober years away from gambling & drinking & quit smoking over 4 years now. Of course he will always be addicted but today he is sober & recovering from his addictions for a long time. I am very proud of him. Some things haven't changed but he is a work in progress. I am a work in progress too. Usually recovery looks good on us. I just hope we can get through this time in my marriage.