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The last couple of weeks have been quite a challenge,starting college,icy roads,car problems,landlord problems a difficult instructor,etc.Well I have learned a lot about myself.Number one I am stronger than I thought, with all of these things hitting when I start something new,I am getting ready for school today.Also the way I approach problems,right now life feels like a mechanical bull and I am trying to hang on.I get thrown but I get back on.I wrestle with things and get upset.Just like my ex,I was going to wrangle him in and hog tie him,ha,ha.I need to practice loosening my grip some.
It was huge for me to let go of even the idea of controlling my day outside of myself. You have made great strides and know I am glad you are here making the changes you can one day at a time. Sending you love and support!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
Mary. You are not alone in fighting stuff. For me it can be a simple irritation that can get me going. For me also it's like I can't let anything "beat" me do I fight and fight. The rush I get out of the anger and struggle. Is as stimulating as a drink for an A. Last night I did a step 7 on this need to get mad and have to fight and wrestle everything. Forcing my way and my will so I feel like I have some control. I am sooo ready to cast off this burden.
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
Totally understand! I'm always ready to fight the good fight, LOL. These days I make sure I turn it over to God before I start fighting and I ask Him when it's time to surrender and let go. Some things must get done in our lives just because we have to live, put food on the table, etc but I try my best to use my program to let go of that which I cannot control and turn it over to God. By the way, I have NOT perfected this.....I am just practicing it, LOL!
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Never grow a wishbone where your backbone ought to be!