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Do you ever feel all out of kilter, like the world has gone a wee bit mad? Or is it just me? Probably. Meetings closing for the holidays and then a fullmoon has me acting like a madwoman. Serenity has left the building. Gone from my life, once again. My meetings started back tonight but the weather turned really exciting and i never went, so much for dedicated member, but im walking these days and i really like it but the wind and rain gave me an excuse to get my quilt and lie on the couch and dose for a while. So no yoga and no meeting. Im going to be gentle with myself and forgive myself. Trying not to justify but sometimes hard to see the difference. I like routine, its nice and familiar, holidays are good but getting back into the routine is a battle for me. Its like the holidays are where im self indulgent and a spoilt brat doing whatever i like and nothing that i need or not much. Now, its back to life and doing what i need to do for serenity in my life. Can you relate?
No, I can't relate. Not anymore, elcee. I'm retired. Life for me now is a routine holiday - just some days have more baubles and bows in them that at other times. I use ODAT for bad weather days - do I have the opportunity, the desire, the ability or the time to go out. On bad weather days, all the nos are lined up in a 4 part row.
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A routine holiday? I could get used to that. Its change that i dont like, from one thing to the next, i can behave badly, its a danger zone for me. It will pass and thanks for the odat suggestion.x
All kidding aside, I really don't have any e/s/h on this particular topic. The only change I really feel deeply is change involving loved ones. I scheduled everything in my life until I retired, so all the days were simply ways I'd planned my life to me.
I have been different the last few days. I believe it to be a letting go of ways of being that no longer fit and making space for new life. I have given clothes away, books, CDs....things I did not believe I could part with. I do this sort of ceremony at the beginning of each new year. Today I found myself feeling edgy, so I took a bath and made meatloaf and mashed potatoes for dinner, which is my comfort food. Tomorrow we will see what will be....my partner ( my hp) and I might get out of the house for a bit, even in these frigid temps
I don't have the feeling most times but right now it sucks. Sucks because I'm sick, still has to go to work and suffer and lay in bed when I get home because I really can't do much else. I hope you can get back on track and I will do the same.
((( hugs )))
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Oh el-cee i can sooo relate.....its normal, really for us alanons...all we've been through??? its litter wonder we are disjointed every now and again......what i do is meditate....get centered.....do a step 7 on things i need to cast off as burdens.....i focus on my breath, be extra nice to me......i make sure i am not hungry, or mad, or tired, my "take care of me stuff" is addressed.....and tell myself i am OK...just the way i am......HUGS
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Yes indeed I can relate. I'm doing it slow and steady. The perfectionist in me wants to be overwhelmed with all the things to take care of. So its one job at a time, no rushing but neither slacking. And you know, its actually satisfying?! Easing in to it.
LC Starting a New Year always brings a little apprehension to my soul. Starting up the routines I have abandoned because of the Holiday, enumerating all the "stuff I need to do for the coming year Taxes, shredding, filing . I just pick up my tools and I am gentle with myself trust the process one day at a time before I know it is July and the year is well on the way
I can relate to your comment about the full moon el-cee. It normally gets me howling if I'm not careful. There must be a werewolf in here somewhere!! I absolutely adore Boxing Day, it is a day when I give myself nothing to do, no demands, there is stacks of good food leftover from the day before and a really comfortable sofa to loll around on and sometimes those glorious frosty morning walks. Heaven. Just for one day .
Thanks for your replys. I feel a bit more alive today. Like im moving on all cylinders. Brain fog was closing in. The full moon makes my edgy, i think there is a scientific explanation for the madness at that time. It just adds to my madness thougn, so im doubly mad, well it feels like it.lol
Boxing day is the day after christmas. Not sure why its called that and wasnt aware you guys didnt have it. I used to think it was because drinkers started boxing each other on that day or maybe the boxes got put away. Im sure there is a more sophisticated reason.x
We have it in Canada too. It is a federal holiday but not all of our provinces recognize it as a provincial holiday. I am not sure of the origins of it. Here it is mainly a day where some families enjoy the great outdoors together and the crazy ones go shopping again for all of the sales posted after Christmas. It is one of the busiest times of the year in the retail industry and people line up outside the stores in the early morning hours to get the coveted sale. Crazy I think.
LOL I thought is was boxing like in a ring.....never thought it being the Christmas boxing day. Thanks I learned something new. I didn't put Christmas up so I can forgo boxing day. Oh when I was doing Christmas , boxing day would be the day after New Years.....had to have that tree at the parties. I was big into the neighborhood open house party. I would 100 people coming and going during the evening. Pretty cool but now a days neighbors just don't get together anymore. I had one party here once and invited the neighbors...they came but if was really boring so never again.
I remember getting so drunk but still alive one New Years....when the clock hit 12 I had silly string for everyone. Well my house was a mess and I just had to get that silly string off the ceiling fan so I preceded to jump on the couch and tried jumping to get the string off. Well as you might think I fell off on my head and thought I broke my neck. But no Cathy just got right back up with everyone laughing at me and went over to the Karaoke machine and starting singing. What a tool I was but a happy tool.
All I know most said later is was the best party they ever when to.
Here I go again....off topic but I'm in a talking mode...so bare with me.. LOL
((( hugs )))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
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