The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I had a session with my therapist yesterday and I said I feel like a ghost floating around alone.I didn't realize it until the session,that is why I go to therapy,things come out in the sessions that I can't make a connection with but my therapist helps me put the puzzle together.I am an only child who grew up with an abusive alcoholic father and an emotionally sick mom, so I had to be strong and invisible a the same time,so I wouldn't upset them.I spent most of my time alone in my room.Now I only go to one meeting a week, and it is very small,I don't have friendships,I don't have a sponsor,yet.We talked about more meetings and more social activities,friendships and building trust.My world is very small and I really need to enlarge it.It's no wonder I feel like a ghost,I am not engaging with life,I feel like I am on the outside looking in.
Mary. Keeping the focus on yourself is extremely important. We have spent all our time people pleasing and focusing on others, no wonder you feel like a ghost as we have made our needs and wants invisible. The ODAT speaks directly to this today.
More meetings, daily gratitude and asset lists will make you more visible to yourself. Remember feelings are not facts and that sharing who you are with others at meetings is essential to recovery. I attended at least one meeting a day for over 2 years in early recovery. You are worth it.
Its good awareness. We tend to isolate when weve been affected. After just a few weeks in alanon I was out my shell. You need to do the work though. It doesnt come without doing it every day. I agree with hotrod, daily readings, gratitude lists and assets and choose a just for today and focus on it.
