The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Well I certainly have been in a mood lately,and I am tired of it!I have been reading about acceptance and I realize I haven't really been accepting where I am at the moment and that is causing me a lot of turmoil in my head.I have been blaming my ex for all my problems.So if he is responsible for all that is wrong in my life then it is hopeless isn't it?Ah,but I am a grown woman and he is not my keeper, so now I have choices to make, do I keep wallowing in this muck or do I take charge of my life.I can continue handing my life over to other people and expect them to fix it, or I can start living life.This is extreme honesty here because I am tired of making myself miserable.I think back and realize I can be quite a baby!It is time for me to deal with the problems that come from inside me!
Mary Good work looking inward. I must caution you about passing negative judgments on yourself - Please remember that you too have been affected by the disease of alcoholism and as a result have developed negative coping tools. .
The ODA T reading for today suggests that we should not waste any of our thoughts exploring the reasons behind other people's choices but we can gain a great deal of insights and change our lives for the better if we focus on ourselves. If we do that and find what we are doing and thinking that is hurting us, we have the tools to correct our own mistakes and attitudes and our lives to will change.
The quote:" I ask God to help keep me on the course that will change my life for the better."
This is all a process The steps, slogans, meetings sponsor are all designed to guide each of us through this journey. You are doing fine .
From what I've read, you are a grown woman making some really hard changes in your life right now? Babies can't do what you can do. The critic that lives in us can be relentless in its badgering. Fortunately, an assets list daily, validating ourselves, good sponsors and a healthy and growing fellowship can drown out its mean-spirited clamoring. I agree with Betty. You are doing fine. I am wondering if you might want to reward yourself tonight for loving yourself enough to move out of a damaging relationship with a bubble bath, a new nail color, a ride to look at Christmas lights, a special holiday ice cream or a new pair of warm socks?
