The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Since I have found al-anon I feel more balanced and connected to my fellow human beings, whether it is a homeless person, an addict, a child, or someone of means. I can see myself in them and them in me even if I like or dislike what they are doing. I have learned when I usually have a strong reaction to another person it is something that I feel strongly about regarding myself. I have been cleaning out the things within that I find no longer suit me and been adding fun, relaxing, kind things to replace them with. I have learned what I do to distract myself and redirect myself back into making the most out of my day. I used to have my very own tantrums often when things were not working out to my high expectations and now I can laugh when the scenario all falls to pieces, usually. I feel very balanced within myself and am so grateful for my wise old sponsor loving me warts and all through some very hard stuff and now I love myself enough to see my imperfections as my humanness and clean it up as I can. I no longer strive to be perfect or have such outlandish fantasy ideals, life is messy, I am messy, it gets complicated in this life and how I handle it and what I learn during each situation is what makes me who I am. I am grateful for my childhood it made me who I am and as much as I have looked back and combed through it, I wouldn't change a thing. I love me and accept me right where I am struggling in this life. I aim to pay it forward the love that was poured into me and I owe so many a huge portion which I pay in love and gratitude. I recently came upon a very stressful and scary financial crisis and how I handled it was amazing directly, because I have an al-anon program. Until I am done with school I am sure to have many more financial struggles and even some after repaying all the loans I am taking to survive now, but we need to eat and live and I know I am good for it later on. I am doing what needs to be done and functioning so much better than ever before, I have confidence and just love how I can breathe even through some very tough decisions I am having to make right now. I am just so grateful for all the people who pour themselves into the betterment of others through al-anon. Without this program I know I would be having a messy fit and trying to get someone else to clean up my mess why I would have wanted to hide away under a blanket somewhere. It never helped I can tell you that. So thank you one and all for being here and loving on me through my journey! Sending you all love and support!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
Yeah, great gratitude post bf. I feel the same, its an amazing program and posts like this keep me working it and hopefully get people through those doors and on to the seats. Love it, love it.x
You do yourself proud, sister! Love this share. All good stuff in it. And you've worked for it. You could have chosen to pity yourself for the rest of your life and excuse yourself for not getting anywhere with your life because of your childhood, but you heard a greater power within than your parents without and heeded it. I like what I see here.
I loved your share, BF. I find it so amazing how I can come to this board and connect with people I have never met and feel such a kinship to them. I love your idea of paying if forward. I feel the same way. Good luck with your school.
Keep working your program because your program is definitely working for you!
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Look for the rainbow after the storm, and I'm sending you a double dose of HOPE. H-hold O-on P-pain E-ends
WOW....BF, its called growing up, LOL....i read your take on the now Breaking Free and the old......isn't it amazing how you can pause...reflect and go oh yea, i am different......progress over perfection...and yea, life is messy, so am I but I can be spot on as well......I have a ways...a long ways to go, but i have travelled forward a long ways too.....I think for me was accepting setbacks as not being singled out, but like you said..Life just gets messy.....my dryer died and this is the worst time of year..so used one...$250 for dryer and delivery...the old me would be cursing my bad luck...the new me just says "oh well the beat goes on" this too shall pass,=====I HOPE, lol..............Nice share, lady!!! good to see ya
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!