That was a response my sponsor gave to me when I was repeating "this doesn't work for me" over and over and over....whaaaa  whaaa   whaa.    Well that is how I found out the program works...because I gave away something I felt wasn't working for me and it worked for them and I got thanked for it and I didn't even remember what for...still it worked and I got busy. 

I'm a double...not news and was on my way to my morning meeting when I got a text from a sponsee saying he was there and was I'm coming also.  I don't text and drive so at a stop I sent a "Y" and continued on.   This sponsee qualifies hugely as a double and has only come to one of our meetings yet has done stuff with our dual programs I doubt very seriously could be done without the hand of God in his own practice of it.  See up until 62 days ago he was hands on taking care of a 24/7 drinking mother.  I mean with her 24/7 and she was not able to take care of herself including even stand up on her own.  He has just over 2 years sober himself and got that in a rehab and AA meetings and the strongest desire to never drink himself for any reason.  His Mom and her drinking  believe me are the surest reason for going back out.  Taking care of her included cleaning her, dressing her, carrying and accompanying thru the most spiritually, mentally and emotionally journey which we all thought they would not survive and included them being homeless and barely fed on the street of Oahu for 8 days.  She was supposed to be in a detox rehab  and the provider turned them down twice after confirmation of service before they left this island and traveled there.  He was my inspiration when we talked and texted.  He was the instrument my Higher Power used against my doubt.  He kept telling me I don't find a reason yet to drink while I was thinking that the next call I get both of them will be done.  I remember Don'T asking me when I thought for sure that I knew the outcome of anything, "Could you be wrong"...humbling question and I'll never entertain answering that question "No".

There they both were...she was standing on her own power...short of real balance yet on her own...he was wanting to leave her with me...for cause of course...so he could be in our meeting.   I don't do that...they both know it.  I gave her a kiss and a hug and she twinkled "I've got 62 days"..."How do you feel about that"?, I asked and she smiled "Okay though at times I hate him" ...looking at her son and I nodded and smiled "I'm sure you do, just about as much as he hates you also".  Of course they both agree...they know and they know that they know what has been going on and how they both wish things were different and then I know and know that I know what the tool of Acceptance looks like, sounds like, feels like and is.  It works when you work it...truly and because of these two I have absolutely no excuse to not work it as best I can. 

He got to speak into the meeting and it released some of that negative fuzzy which gets caught in the corners of our recovery and aired out his spirit.  I've been in the journey and I'm grateful be have been able to "watch someone else work it"  believe me I've been watching a miracle.   "62 days sober", He bought her the last bottle when he didn't want to and we talk about that enabling after he did.  She said that after that bottle realizing what he had gone thru with her, watching him while she drank...she just stopped and couldn't find a reason to continue; not even the withdrawals and mental, emotional and physical, spiritual pain.   Just for Today.  Thank you God for the opportunity.    BIG YAY!! 

We ended the meeting as always in prayer and when done I gave her a hug and a kiss and we shared a few words some of hers were.  "I'm learning to like him (her son) and I'll work at trying to like you also".   Good nuf.  Grateful.    Thanks for letting me share.    (((((hugs)))))