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i woke up early this morning, looking forward to chairing the Spirituality Meeting this am. I sat up out of bed, streched my sleepy arms up, bend my head from side to side and open my eyes to see about a foot of snow outside! I know for some of you that's no biggi, but for us here, that's a lot more then we get in one day, even more then we get in one season some years. Anyway, needless to say, the power was out and the phone lines were down. My hubby hooked up the generator which brought us hot coffee and power for the computer, but since i have dial up, no online access. So there, that's my story and i'm stickin to it! No, really though, sorry i wasn't there this morning but that's why.
Being that i couldn't go to my meeting, or to church this morning, I started to panic a bit. I started to worry about the meeting not getting run, started to worry about my kids not getting to church, or not being able to pick up my oldest from his dad's. I decide to read and pray a bit more then usual, and in doing so, decided today that just for today i would try to work my program a bit harder; put a little more effort into it then normal. You know that little bookmark the give you when your a newcomer, it says on the top "JUST FOR TODAY" in big letters? I like to pick a saying from that little bookmark, and just for that one day work on that one thing. (I either do that, or pick just one slogan to work on for that one day)
Today, my "thing" was,
"Just for today, I will be agreeable. I will look as well as I can, dress becomingly, keep my voice low, be courteous, criticize not one bit. I won't find fault with anything, nor try to improve or regulate anybody but myself."
What a great way to change what could have been, and most probably would have been a stir crazy day full of worry, panic and boredom and turn it around into something for me to think on and work towards just for this one day instead.
With my focus in the right place, my children aren't driving me crazy, my husband isn't doing anything i need to take inventory of rofl, i get to just love all of them instead. I went outside and took some amazing pictures of the horses and the dogs in the snow, built snowmen with my children, came in and played board games with my hubby , layed down for a nice nap with them all and when i woke up, the phone lines where back up and running. Isn't it amazing what a little change of view can help you to see?
I truely believe that if we just ask HP for his guidance and trust that he's in charge, any day can be as beautiful of a gift as this one. Things didn't go according to my plan, nope, that's for sure, his plan was much better then mine.
love you all (and i did miss you this morning), Trina
Over reaction is one of my charactor defects. I am so glad that you can think of your program at times like this. I am happy for you that you remained centered. I am so very rarely centered I find it hard to get back there.