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Hi! I am so behind on the board and there are some very good posts I need to respond too! Ya'll are always so inspiring - I just read and feel better!
I went to a F2F meeting last week and I had a funny experience. I parked in the wrong place and went in the wrong meeting (AA meets next door) I am already a very awkward person, so this is really just par for the course. When I finally got to where I was supposed to be, I sat down, nervously, and a really nice lady gave me a newcomer packet. At first, once the meeting started, I was thinking to myself "I have nothing in common with these people, why am I here? I'll just stay this one time and then I'm outta here" Faulty thinking. ANYWAY, once the sharing started I almost started crying. I was so blown away by what everyone there was saying. It was like they were putting words to the way I feel - like they had been at my house spying on me...LOL! Needless to say, by the end of the meeting, I felt like I had everything in common with these people and I can't wait to go back! (Tomorrow - and I need it sooo bad!!!)
So life has been crazy busy and I thought I was doing well a while back, but I just can't seem to gain acceptance for all that is going on in my life. I guess i am just very stubborn. I can do well, feel like I'm detaching with love, then something sets me off and I am right back to square one. Defeated. Miserable. Not sure if I can go on this way. Sadly it seems like bad days are getting more frequent than good days (and this is all me, because AH has not changed anything - he's still drinking all day, every day and doing his thing) I have got to get to some acceptance and serenity. SO it's Monday. A fresh start. Let's do this...
Fairlee Glad you found the meeting and stayed. Keep cooming back as it is all a process .
Read the new comers pack-- take out the "Just for Today card and read it over and over as you start your day.Repeating the serenity prayer over and over in time of distress and living one day at a time makes it all more manageable.
(((((Fairlee)))))...gotta add one more word to the end of "Lets do this" the word is "together"...that is how this works we do this together...hook up and Lets do this together. (((((Hugs)))))
This is how I felt when I went to my first meeting, it was like they could see into my very soul. So glad you made it, many people never make it to meetings. I heard a suggestion to show up and let the program work within you.
Acceptance cant really be forced, also, its about what not to accept, unacceptable behaviour is just that, unacceptable. Give it time, read like crazy, go to every meeting you can. It took me a couple of months before I had changed a lot of things in my life.
Interesting as I read your post and looked at your avatar it struck me that you are looking out at the beautiful vast world from an enclosed space. Al anon will help free you to BE IN that beautiful world. Blessings and peace, Fairlee.
I am so glad you found Al-Anon, Fairlee. I remember after my first meeting, I felt like a gigantic weight had been lifted. I was so relieved to know there were other people just like me. I didn't feel so alone, so isolated, so forgotten.
Hang in there and keep going to the f2f meetings and keep coming back here.
It works if you work it.
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Look for the rainbow after the storm, and I'm sending you a double dose of HOPE. H-hold O-on P-pain E-ends
I am so glad you made it to that first meeting! For me it was like finding home, I had never felt so understood and accepted. Keep up the great work and every minute of everyday is a do over. Sending you love and support on your journey!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
