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I see my therapist on Thursday,and we uncover more stuff,I talked about some things that happened when I was a child and she gives me another book to read,this one is about shame.I was never good enough and I never pleased my father.My mom and I used to go hunt for him at bars,but I was the bad kid, really!!He was a tyrant, I call him a raging bull.I read the first chapter,I have it,I feel defective and different,I feel outside of others.Friday's are hard,I am tired and overwhelmed with emotions.We talked about my coping skills and how I will probably go backwards some until I learn to apply new things,I didn't like to hear that.I am thinking about changing the day of my appointment,my weekend sucks and my daughter works so I am alone allot.Weekends were always hard anyway,that is when the drinking was the heaviest and he didn't even bother to come home at all. I hated weekends!!I know my posts havent been joyful as of late and I feel like I am a whiner,but I think I am in the thick of it now guys!!!okay this really blows!!there I said it!!
!I know my posts havent been joyful as of late and I feel like I am a whiner,but I think I am in the thick of it now guys!!!okay this really blows!!there I said it!!
Hey recovery can be brutal....thawing out my feelings, i whined and bitched until i grooved into the meetings, steps, slogans, etc., and just kept hanging out here till i got out all the rage and grief and i still have my "bad hair days" in recovery where i discover yet another thing i have to work out and then here come the feelings/emotions about it......when your child hood is the pits, your injured..wounded...so ya make bad choices and keep the pain going b/c for me, I did't know any better but a sucky way to live..... please keep coming back...keep an open mind...it will get better ok???? we are listening.....in support
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
Like your therapist said, it will take some time to make adjustments in how you see yourself and grieve through some of this stuff. Good plan on seeing if you can reschedule your meeting with her if it's too much to be home alone. Might be some Al-Anon meetings in your area on Friday nights? If not, there is one going on now in our chat room if you're interested? It doesn't matter if you're a wee bit late. They saved a chair for you.
I go to a drug and alcohol therapist , i feel they help you more if you are
Involved with an A. They understand addictions and what happens with
Us when we live with one.
My therapist told me last time i was there for a check up, just deal with
Your current issues. Do not go back into your other areas right now you can
Only handle so much at once.
I am currently seperated, soon to be divorced from my dry ah. We were
Married for 29 years. I am grieving and mourning my marriage and him.
I cry 1/2 hour a day and it has been close to four months. It is very clensing
And healing to my Heart, soul and mind. You face alot of truths about
Yourself and your relationship and also your past hurts come into play
You can face them slowly. Alanon mtgs and a sponsor help to get you
to think clearer and more Rational.
My esh is stay with the current issues, i have alot of demons from my
Own past but i can only face them when i am ready emotionally to go
back there. I am getting emotionally stronger/healthier every day but it
Takes time. Be gentle with yourself it is a long painful journey.
I agree with Mirandac. When I began to see an addiction counselor, I felt completely understood. Recovery is not easy...you are doing great. Stay connected in meetings and here. These are communities that understand and will tough it out with you.
